How many times do I have to tell you that I was raised a YEC? I was a practicing Christian till I was 30, and only accepted my atheism a few years ago.
Ok? You never told me that, but thanks for telling me that.
The point of this question is to see how much knowledge you all have about the issue of sin.
Sin blinds us to seeing God, to finding evidence of His existance, to walk away from Him, to get confused. Sin affects us physically, mentally, emotionaly. Sin affects the world around us. Sin blinds our minds and eyes.
Study, study all you want both sides of any issues, but using other sources will never be as trustworthy as the Bible.
Science stemmed from Christian men, Christianity existed long before and the belief in God.
Anyway, why would you be a practicing Christian for 30 years and turn away from it so easily?
Whenever I feel like walking away from God because I feel very angry or something in my life just hardens my heart against God, I think of this:
O to grace how great a debtor
Daily Im constrained to be!
Let Thy goodness, like a fetter,
Bind my wandering heart to Thee.
Prone to wander, Lord I feel it,
Prone to leave the God I love,
Take my heart, O take and seal it,
Seal it for Thy Courts above.
Its a hymn "Come Thy Fount of Every Blessing" by Robert Robinson.
Just remember God never walks away from you, stay strong, and don't give up.