Drained

[NatethaGreat]

No the pain is still inside, even if I let go that doesn't remove the pain that's in my heart. I feel so lonely, stupid, and used.

I'm not sure why your depressed, is it something from your past? It would help me understand

 

[Noxot]

God is always with you. inside of you God is there. how else could you exist? have you tried having all your pain and just silently reaching to God with it? no need to think thoughts, just reach your emotions/heart out to God for a while, offering God to comfort you. don't let evil thoughts bug you, just reach to him. crying tears for God is good too.

 

[knw1991]

I'm not sure why your depressed, is it something from your past? It would help me understand

build up of first doubting my salvation and i felt like God wasnt listening to my cries for help about my doubts, it made me feel i wasnt loved, those thoughts and pain grew, along with my father going in and out of my life, and then met someone here online, fell in love they didnt follow through with their promises for various reasons, heartbroken, things jst built up leaving me feeling worthless,hurt, disappointed, everything hurts including the verdict in the Trayvon Martin case, how can it be ok to kill a 17 year old boy, a shot through the heart, no justice, parents left in pain along with his family, killer walks free, cant be self defense if you approached this "suspicious teen" with a gun, its called racial profiling. everything hurts me including knowing that im black and im seen inferior because of it. i try to not feel resentment toward whites and i pray that God would help me to not, but now im just wondering about everyone intentions, no matter what their race is.everything hurts, people just walk all over your heart, do things to others as if they have no soul or heart. am i really in this place? it feels like a jungle where i have to fight to live like an animal. i just dont want to be part of it anymore. im tired have two exams to study for, one is monday then tuesday, im depressed and hurting for Trayvon Martin, this is just too much.

 

[Spunkn]

There is no "true" justice in this world, because one day everyone will have to stand before God and be held accountable. So no one truly "gets away" with anything. God sees everything. However, because of His mercy, He gives people a chance to turn back to Him before it's too late.

Also, don't believe all the things you see in the media just because they portray it that way. The media in this country is completely biast and only show what they want to show. They hardly ever show the true story when it comes to certain stories. I'm not saying I know what really happened in the Trayvon Martin case, but when it comes to most news stories, they hardly ever get you the real story.

 

[knw1991]

Yea you're right. I just can't find any peace or comfort in my mind. My mind is always going 1,000 miles per hour. Life seems bleak, dreadful, and relentless. I struggle to see a good future for myself and how could I ever truly have peace while living on the earth. Jesus said he gives us peace but it just seems like all my prayers aren't doing anything, everyday brings a new thing to worry about.

 

[knw1991]

That reminds that I'll also stand before God and I'm sure he won't be pleased with my life but I just dont trust in God

 

[Noxot]

your mistrust is keeping you from being happy. why not just let go of it? why not believe God thinks you are good enough? why don't you trust God? is it because you think he is cruel or mean? someone you can't be close to? the peace is not on the earth, the peace is in heaven and heaven is right here but most people don't see it, they dwell in the earth instead.

 

[knw1991]

It's hard for me to let go because I just keep thinking of all the pain and why it happened and how much it hurt me. It hurts that my life has gone so far downhill and I spend everyday try to get through the pain. It's unbearable and it makes me wonder how I could ever trust in God if he allowed my life to take such a painful course after I tried to trust in him for my salvation. I Want to let go and trust him but it just seems like He's nonchalant and far from me. I know Jesus died for our sins but im not good enough to receive blessings and help from God

 

[NatethaGreat]

You want to heal and move on? You HAVE to let go! Do it for yourself, end the suffering. You are your own worst enemy right now by holding on to all of this. God isn't going to make it so you wake up one day and your depression is miraculously gone. All of those bad things that have happened are OVER. Let them go...

 

[knw1991]

Ok, but what of letting go means one day my pain comes back even harder than before?

 

[knw1991]

I'm just not strong enough to make it in this world

 

[NatethaGreat]

It won't come back harder in fact you will be a stronger person after this experience because you will know what to do (letting go)if depression hits you or someone you know, you can help them.

But first thing is first, you need to help yourself right now

 

[Jeshu]

This is the truth I found battling depression; faith in a loving God can rescue us from the loveless voices of depression. Even deepest depression hasn't got what it takes to overcome faith in God's love, because faith in God's love focus' on Jesus and not on oneself. Also in God's love there is no fear, so once we have united our hearts with Him our fears go away.

Faith in God's love is The Best force to overcome depression.

 

[knw1991]

How do I believe in God's love. I have to start from scratch because life has beat me down. Everything feels hopeless and today especially tonight I feel like there's no purpose in living, no real reason when there is nothing but opportunity to get closer each day to the next painful event, the next tragedy, the next thing that breaks your heart, I don't mean to be negative but this is the way I feel. I feel like any person that comes into my life to help me is only there for a little whole, then they get tired of me and they move on. I've been this way for two years now, I never thought I would get this low, how can I trust God with my future if my life turned out this way after I tried to choose the narrow path to eternal life. I've ended up on a lonely, painful, hopeless path and sometimes it's not even worth trying to find my way back. I just don't want to fight for life anymore, I'm tired, I've prayed countless times and sought help but I just keep getting knocked back down. I have an extremely sensitive part in my heart for people who have been murdered and I pray for their families. I know this world is evil but why keep going when I know this world offers nothing but evil, pain, hatred and so many more negative things. Why hope for a husband when he could leave me after over 20 years of marriage, I've heard of it happening. I know I worry about things a lot but why expect good when it could never come? You just open yourself to more pain. My heart is heavy, it feels like theres a hole in my soul and like my heart is ripped in half. I can feel the physical pain.

 

[Spunkn]

I'm still here, I've just been a little busy recently with stuff.

You believe in God's love or can find reaffirmation in it through reading Scriptures. Replace lies with truth. You can trust the Bible and you can trust God.

Why expect good? Because God is good. Life will never be easy, but God does promise to be there for us through it. There's going to be pain, and suffering because we as humans chose to disobey God. However that doesn't mean there won't be good times. There certainly will if we trust God.

I know what you're feeling though, so I can sympathize. As I've mentioned before, I went through it for years. You begin to feel lost and hopeless, like nothing works. So you try something new, and that doesn't work.

Don't give up though, God will find a way to see you through it. I believe that. I waited a long time without ever feeling like there was hope. But God was faithful.

 

[knw1991]

God isn't faithful. He allowed me to go down this path and now my counselor has recommended I get a psychiatric evaluation. This is the point I've got to.

 

[Jeshu]

God isn't faithful. He allowed me to go down this path and now my counselor has recommended I get a psychiatric evaluation. This is the point I've got to.

Isn't God faithful or did you expected your life to turn out different and now blame God for that not happening?

When I crashed and was finally diagnosed with a severe mental illness I also thought that God had let me down. I raged at Him for years. However nothing could have been further from the truth. My expectations had failed me but God remained faithful. God cannot be unfaithful for He is faithful to The End.

It wasn't until the truth exposed the lies I had believed about God, myself and others that the love of God could make a difference in my hurting life though.

For to blame God for our misery only keeps us away from His good life, that much I have learned to understand about Him, and also that we need to have faith in His love and hope for His good life, for that is what brings Him and His good life around.

So please repent of all the bad things you have said and thought about God for they will only cut you even more off from His good life and accept your life as it is imperfect and hurting and begin to take good care of it, it is the least you can do to turn your fortunes around.

Jesus showed me that what we sow we shall harvest! For years I sowed unloving thoughts and feelings about God, myself and others into my heart, my harvest was deepest depression and desolation. However when I begun to sow love and kindness into my heart the good things that I stored there began to overcome my depression and desolation and made me stronger than it.

please put your trust in Him.

 

[knw1991]

how can I forget what has been done to me? It's not fair. I don't want to be here anymore.

 

[NatethaGreat]

God isn't faithful. He allowed me to go down this path and now my counselor has recommended I get a psychiatric evaluation. This is the point I've got to.

i wouldn't say you need a psychiatric evaluation it's obvious that your depressed, psychotherapist would help. And don't look at it as a bad thing, that just shows you want to heal from this and move on with your life

 

[Spunkn]

how can I forget what has been done to me? It's not fair. I don't want to be here anymore.

We probably won't ever forget what's been done to us, that's how we learn. But that doesn't mean the pain of it has to rule our lives. I will never forget the years of depression that I went through. But I don't feel the pain of it, like I once did. Through Christ we can find healing.