Drained

[NatethaGreat]

It's just hopeless, I'll always be this way. I thought I could believe that things will get better for me emotionally but they won't. Maybe I'm not meant to overcome

I'm not sure if your aware of this but i see a part of you that wants to heal ( why your here for advice) and feel better to get rid of your depression, but there is another part of you that refuses to let go (aka keep the depression going in your life)

Obviously you want to heal, but i see a side of you that is obsessed over not letting something go that caused you pain in the past and that is holding you back.

 

[Criada]

It's not fair. Why doesn't God care about me? Why did he put me here to suffer in life?
I can't even express how I feel here anymore because I'll get in trouble for triggering others, I don't want to leave the house today, what's the point in doing anything

It's just hopeless, I'll always be this way. I thought I could believe that things will get better for me emotionally but they won't. Maybe I'm not meant to overcome

God does care about you, sweetie - more than you can possibly imagine.
When we are depressed and struggling, it can be hard to believe that, but it is the truth
God has a plan for you, and it is good - you can't see it yet, but please try to hold on to the fact that there is hope, and you are already an overcomer.

Praying for you, sweetie.
Is there something small that you can do today to improve things - even if it's just getting out of bed or going for a short walk? Little steps lead to bigger ones

 

[knw1991]

I'm not sure if your aware of this but i see a part of you that wants to heal ( why your here for advice) and feel better to get rid of your depression, but there is another part of you that refuses to let go (aka keep the depression going in your life)

Obviously you want to heal, but i see a side of you that is obsessed over not letting something go that caused you pain in the past and that is holding you back.

youre right. i always feel uplifted and ready to get well after i leave my counselor on saturday, but as the days go by, i just feel like im not strong enough, things wont change. i struggle with feeling lonely. i hate being alone. i feel empty. what do i have to live for? i dont know what to do with my life. sometimes i just dont have the strength to believe in God's truth. My counselor told me i need to fight back against depression, but im just not strong enough. i just wish God could reach inside of me and take the pain away.

 

[knw1991]

God does care about you, sweetie - more than you can possibly imagine.
When we are depressed and struggling, it can be hard to believe that, but it is the truth
God has a plan for you, and it is good - you can't see it yet, but please try to hold on to the fact that there is hope, and you are already an overcomer.

Praying for you, sweetie.
Is there something small that you can do today to improve things - even if it's just getting out of bed or going for a short walk? Little steps lead to bigger ones

thank you Criada, yesterday i just wanted to know so badly that God cared for me, because i felt like he didnt. i feel so alone. i cant take this pain anymore. it sounds too good to be true that God has a plan for me I want to believe that He does.

i guess i can go for a walk tomorrow i cant even focus in school anymore and study because it makes me feel mentally stressed. i cant let go of the pain because it hurts to know that i've let myself get to this point. i used to be a hard working student. i used to be normal. now my life has hit rock bottom. what is the purpose of this happening to me? its just not fair. i have to accept all my weaknesses of depression, loneliness, rejection, and doubt. my mind is so weak.

 

[Jeshu]

God does care about you, sweetie - more than you can possibly imagine.
When we are depressed and struggling, it can be hard to believe that, but it is the truth
God has a plan for you, and it is good - you can't see it yet, but please try to hold on to the fact that there is hope, and you are already an overcomer.

Praying for you, sweetie.
Is there something small that you can do today to improve things - even if it's just getting out of bed or going for a short walk? Little steps lead to bigger ones

Yes as someone with a depressive illness I endorse that.

Take small steps but do walk away from your depression by slowly filling your time with other things than the misery you are in.

Jesus taught me to sow lots of love and good will around for such will bring in a good harvest. (and it does!) I also find it helps to get involved with other people, both the good and the bad of them, it brings in lots of other emotions, (then just depressive ones) which push depression aside, even if it is only for a short while, it still happens and this has a massive impact on our psyche.

Also for many depression can be beaten into the background with the right medications.

Above all understanding that the negative thoughts and feelings of your depressive heart and mind are all lies, lies which we don't have to believe when we embrace God's loving truth.

When we do stop believing those painful lies about God, ourselves and other people, then such lies can't hurt us any more - even when we feel depressed - to still know for certain that you can keep the worst of the emotional pain out by not believing what you have to experience but holding on to the truth of God and the promises of His Word.

It is amazing how resilient to depression you grow in God's love.


Be of good courage depression can also bring up beautiful diamonds of heart and mind.

 

[knw1991]

i want to help others that are depressed but it just makes me feel worse hearing about their pain. my counselor said i should meditate on truth and put myself in a positive environment. not saying that cf isnt positive but she said i need to get to a better place emotionally before i can actively help others, but i do pray for people that i encounter here and in every day life.

 

[Jeshu]

i want to help others that are depressed but it just makes me feel worse hearing about their pain. my counselor said i should meditate on truth and put myself in a positive environment. not saying that cf isnt positive but she said i need to get to a better place emotionally before i can actively help others, but i do pray for people that i encounter here and in every day life.

Good on you, that is awesome to hear! keep building good things into you! They endure.

 

[knw1991]

Good on you, that is awesome to hear! keep building good things into you! They endure.

Thank you. I prayed to God last night and broke down crying. I hope he will acknowledge my prayer, there's a part of me that feels he doesn't take it serious . Why does depression have to be my lot in life

 

[Jeshu]

Thank you. I prayed to God last night and broke down crying. I hope he will acknowledge my prayer, there's a part of me that feels he doesn't take it serious . Why does depression have to be my lot in life

I don't know why depression has to be our lot in life, I do know it has to do with Satan and human sin, both which refuse to stop doing wrong, depression has hurt me a lot as well.:o

Depression has taught me a lot about God - how He turns negative forces into positive ones for example - also I keep reminding myself that God will turn it all to my benefit one great day I will see that completely - even though I rejoice in that now already.

For the best part of depression for me has been, is that it shaped me into a lot nicer person then I once was. I have learned to love more and better and I have learned to be patient, long suffering and more accepting then I was before. Depression has also humbled me a lot, these are all positives despite the sufferings which have come my way.

God can do good things with depression that much I have learned to understand.

 

[knw1991]

But I didn't sin to get myself into depression, I didn't do anything but worry about my salvation and then it made me develop depression. It's not fair. I don't want to live with this until Jesus comes back. I won't be going with him anyway. God doesn't care. He just wants people to suffer in pain. This is not a game, it's my life. I'm ready to give up I shouldve never cared about "salvation". There are people enjoying happy and fulfilling lives that believe in God and that don't believe in God. I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life and I don't want to learn anything from this. I just hate being here and I'm sick of everything.

I had good intentions of wanting to be saved. My counselor said I didn't believe I was saved because I didn't feel accepted by God because I didn't feel acceptance from my father. Well I didnt ask to be born to a drug addicted father. My life has been a recipe for disaster before I was even born. I'm tired of praying and trying to get God to care and take my pain seriously. I'm not waiting until he returns to be free. I'm not one of the apostles who suffered for Christ and my life isn't a game. I don't care anymore, God can keep his "salvation" I don't want it.

 

[knw1991]

I just don't care anymore. I give up

 

[Okano]

I don't know why depression has to be our lot in life, I do know it has to do with Satan and human sin, both which refuse to stop doing wrong, depression has hurt me a lot as well.:o

Depression has taught me a lot about God - how He turns negative forces into positive ones for example - also I keep reminding myself that God will turn it all to my benefit one great day I will see that completely - even though I rejoice in that now already.

For the best part of depression for me has been, is that it shaped me into a lot nicer person then I once was. I have learned to love more and better and I have learned to be patient, long suffering and more accepting then I was before. Depression has also humbled me a lot, these are all positives despite the sufferings which have come my way.

God can do good things with depression that much I have learned to understand.

I can tell you really know what you're talking about and you have definitely experienced deep sadness. Happy for you to have had this great learning opportunity.

 

[NatethaGreat]

But I didn't sin to get myself into depression, I didn't do anything but worry about my salvation and then it made me develop depression. It's not fair. I don't want to live with this until Jesus comes back. I won't be going with him anyway. God doesn't care. He just wants people to suffer in pain. This is not a game, it's my life. I'm ready to give up I shouldve never cared about "salvation". There are people enjoying happy and fulfilling lives that believe in God and that don't believe in God. I don't want to suffer for the rest of my life and I don't want to learn anything from this. I just hate being here and I'm sick of everything.

I had good intentions of wanting to be saved. My counselor said I didn't believe I was saved because I didn't feel accepted by God because I didn't feel acceptance from my father. Well I didnt ask to be born to a drug addicted father. My life has been a recipe for disaster before I was even born. I'm tired of praying and trying to get God to care and take my pain seriously. I'm not waiting until he returns to be free. I'm not one of the apostles who suffered for Christ and my life isn't a game. I don't care anymore, God can keep his "salvation" I don't want it.

What has your counselor been telling you to do to heal from whatever is bothering you?

 

[knw1991]

She said to write down truthful statements about who God says I am. She told me to give myself breaks In between studying for classes and to do relaxing things. She told me to avoid sad things because it feeds depression. She told me to acknowledge painful thoughts but don't keep my mind there but instead write 3 statements that are truth To contradict my thoughts

 

[Jeshu]

She said to write down truthful statements about who God says I am. She told me to give myself breaks In between studying for classes and to do relaxing things. She told me to avoid sad things because it feeds depression. She told me to acknowledge painful thoughts but don't keep my mind there but instead write 3 statements that are truth To contradict my thoughts

Wise advise!

One of the main things we depressed people can learn to do is counteract the lies of depression with the truth of God's Word, this is how I walked away from my worst times of depression, by slowly rebuilding my mind and heart using God's loving truth and promises. It is amazing what The Truth of God can do in a depressed heart.


A very helpful book on the matter is called "Who Switched Off My Brain? Controlling Toxic Thoughts And Emotions," by Dr Caroline Leaf. This book helps you to unmask toxic thinking and change them through prayer. A very helpful book for someone who has a depressive illness.

 

[NatethaGreat]

She said to write down truthful statements about who God says I am. She told me to give myself breaks In between studying for classes and to do relaxing things. She told me to avoid sad things because it feeds depression. She told me to acknowledge painful thoughts but don't keep my mind there but instead write 3 statements that are truth To contradict my thoughts

How's that working for you?

 

[knw1991]

How's that working for you?

I don't have the strength to fight the pain so I just give up. I haven't improved but she said I have because I haven't tried to overdose, but I can't go on. There's no purpose nothing makes sense. I can't focus in school I applied for graduation but I don't think I'm going to make it. Either I'll fail my class or just be too depressed.

 

[NatethaGreat]

I don't have the strength to fight the pain so I just give up. I haven't improved but she said I have because I haven't tried to overdose, but I can't go on. There's no purpose nothing makes sense. I can't focus in school I applied for graduation but I don't think I'm going to make it. Either I'll fail my class or just be too depressed.

Well you will see your purpose, and things will make sense once your not depressed. Have your tried letting go yet?

 

[knw1991]

No the pain is still inside, even if I let go that doesn't remove the pain that's in my heart. I feel so lonely, stupid, and used.

 

[knw1991]

If this is my lot in life I don't want to live. I'm bit praying continually and repeating myself over and over when God knows what I'm going through. How much must I endure before he helps me. I hate this I just want to get out of here