Is it God's will for me to sin?
Do I sin.
I'm looking for Scripture., but more than that, I'm looking for the Scripture
to be "rightly divided" as well.
I do sometimes sin, much as I hate to, much as it makes me sad.
It makes me sad because I don't believe my Father is blessed or glorified when I sin...
Without some extent of free will, the idea of morality is essentially a meaningless illusion. Much of modern secular science works from that premise of hard determinism, where everything that we say and do is merely a function of our brains, and the environmental forces that work upon it at a neuronal and evolutionary level.
There would be no theme nor verse in the Bible that would validate that point of view, for the concept of being able to choose good and reject evil permeates almost every theme and verse.
There is however the idea that God destroyed the world corrupted by the perpetually evil desires of mankind, and conversely promises not to destroy it for the exact same reason.
5 When the LORD saw how great was man's wickedness on earth, and how no desire that his heart conceived was ever anything but evil,
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he regretted that he had made man on the earth, and his heart was grieved.
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So the LORD said: "I will wipe out from the earth the men whom I have created, and not only the men, but also the beasts and the creeping things and the birds of the air, for I am sorry that I made them."
. and then,
When the LORD smelled the sweet odor, he said to himself: "Never again will I doom the earth because of man, since the desires of man's heart are evil from the start; nor will I ever again strike down all living beings, as I have done.
He learned to accept that this is part of our nature, and he chooses to live with us in spite of that.
There is such a thing as human nature then, and at least from our youth, we are not born good. We have too creators in fact, the earth and God, and like all of the animal kingdom, our human nature inclines toward fulfilling our desires.
We are not simply slaves to our evil inclinations and animal desires either, for the voice of God still commands us, in a way that not even the most magnificent of beasts is compelled to obey.
This is to say that free will is not absolute, for our very bodies conspire against us, and the source of many of our impulses come from the body outside of conscious will even.
Nevertheless, even as evil beckons us through our desires, and lurks always just outside our door, like a snake in the grass even, we have the ability to prevail against those baser desires.
Our minds are a battlefield. God accepts the fact that our inclinations are from evil from the break of day to the setting of the sun. That is something we need to accept about ourselves too, not in order to succumb, but to apply our will to prevailing against those inclinations.
We do have the tools to influence these evil inclinations. Sages have described the evil inclination, the beast within, as the meat, and the bible as the spice for that meat, the sweet odor of the above offering to God.
Rules, rituals, prayers and meditation, etc, are the means to train the will and apply the spice that give the meat of our desires direction, and character.
Perfection however takes a lifetime. It is a ceaseless kind of prayer that allows for mind to prevail over matter.