Atheist to Christian.

[simplee_mandee]

My yahoo address is
"simplee_M4ndee at yahoo dot com"
and you can call me Mandy. SwanPsalm and MissesDenim both feel free to message me if you like ? What is your name's anyways? You can call me Mandy or Manda ​

 

[MissesDenim]

Ugh See. When I first got back into the whole "Christian" Scene, I was all into the whole "Burn everything or chuck anything that gives Demons permission to dwell here" But my family wasnt on the same page..Main thing I wanted gone or off was the TV. Yeah I can watch TBN all day but doesnt mean they will, they go to church and stuff but its kind of complicated >_< as for it saying your name..I experienced that ONCE. It was when I was on the phone with my now Ex gf (to do the right thing as a reborn Christian) and I was on the couch laying down in the dark talking..then I heard a raspy voice whisper "Needy" in the phone. I was like whaaa.?? *Looks around the room* (As if I can see anything lol) Asked her if she said my name and she said no, it was kind of weird :/ the sad part is thats the only spiritual voice I ever heard which P's me off now that Im thinking about it -_- w.e though (moves on) I have a lot of things that are bad..but as for movies, The one's before CD's came out. But they are not mine so I cant just throw them out :/ Im scared to get deep into this whole thing because. Seeing as I have all of these things still in my house and When I waas into it into it weird things was happening and the feeling of being watched and endless nights of insomnia was upon me -_- until I prayed for peace of mind and over my house, It was scary. But thats a cool idea, packing the bad things in a bag and putting it into storage, rather than giving it away to torment some other blind sheeple :/ and woooow thats a powerful gift..I mean your practically untouchable. And you identified your gift early so you can use it to your advantage or help others. Thanks for the Update, as always another interesting post. As for Mandy, you can hit me up on here, Im never on yahoo, only for mail but Ima add you anyways

 

[MissesDenim]

I also gave u reps for like every post because these stories are whaaaa. x]

 

[SwanPslam48]

Yeah it sounds like you do o_o! I kinda have it sometimes but I can only physically feel, sense, see stuff moving by itself, or make a signs. I can only see or hear if I'm in a state where I am really tired or zoned out almost like meditation lol. It sounds like your discernment is a lot more obvious then mine. ​

I remember a year ago I did the same thing I threw away so much of my stuff because I was really into fantasy, the paranormal, and anime. That kind of stuff can be open doors to bad spirits sometimes :/. I think I opened a door because I started to fall away from Christianity and get into New Age about 6 yrs ago.​

What a mistake -_-... It started to scare me at some point in the teachings and it just didn't sound right so I turned away from it. An important thing to remember is to have strong faith when you bind or rebuke bad spirits in Jesus's name because I think they can tell. It has been helping me lately. ​

If you need anybody to talk to that you can relate to you, you can always e-mail me I have some pretty crazy things that have happened to me to o_o. Maybe we can help each other out.​

"An important thing to remember is to have strong faith when you bind or rebuke bad spirits in Jesus's name because I think they can tell. It has been helping me lately."


Yes, It's true. I tried it once just went they started to appear and I heard them laugh at me. That's why I was so hesitant to try rebuking it again.

I swear sometimes they'd put thoughts in my head that would make me sick to my stomach and I'd hear them chuckle.


I'd love to email you. I'll message you when I get the chance.

 

[SwanPslam48]

Ugh See. When I first got back into the whole "Christian" Scene, I was all into the whole "Burn everything or chuck anything that gives Demons permission to dwell here" But my family wasnt on the same page..Main thing I wanted gone or off was the TV. Yeah I can watch TBN all day but doesnt mean they will, they go to church and stuff but its kind of complicated >_< as for it saying your name..I experienced that ONCE. It was when I was on the phone with my now Ex gf (to do the right thing as a reborn Christian) and I was on the couch laying down in the dark talking..then I heard a raspy voice whisper "Needy" in the phone. I was like whaaa.?? *Looks around the room* (As if I can see anything lol) Asked her if she said my name and she said no, it was kind of weird :/ the sad part is thats the only spiritual voice I ever heard which P's me off now that Im thinking about it -_- w.e though (moves on) I have a lot of things that are bad..but as for movies, The one's before CD's came out. But they are not mine so I cant just throw them out :/ Im scared to get deep into this whole thing because. Seeing as I have all of these things still in my house and When I waas into it into it weird things was happening and the feeling of being watched and endless nights of insomnia was upon me -_- until I prayed for peace of mind and over my house, It was scary. But thats a cool idea, packing the bad things in a bag and putting it into storage, rather than giving it away to torment some other blind sheeple :/ and woooow thats a powerful gift..I mean your practically untouchable. And you identified your gift early so you can use it to your advantage or help others. Thanks for the Update, as always another interesting post. As for Mandy, you can hit me up on here, Im never on yahoo, only for mail but Ima add you anyways

I completly relate with the tv. That's all my family does is watch tv. Even those bad reality shows Ugh..



"and woooow thats a powerful gift..I mean your practically untouchable. And you identified your gift early so you can use it to your advantage or help others."



I don't see it that way but I have been praying to keep humble.

I do want to use it to help others. A lot. I'm just waiting for the Lord to tell me what to do. He know's when I'm ready and it's His choice to decide what I need to use it for.

Yikes about the voice you heard btw.

Something similar happened the day after I rebuked the demon. The phone rang and all I heard was a breathy 'haaaaaa.' and I hanged up. I prayed that it wasn't actually someone dying. :o

 

[SwanPslam48]

I also gave u reps for like every post because these stories are whaaaa. x]

I got to admit they are, but it's God writing it not me.

 

[SwanPslam48]

Something I consider writeable worthy( imho ) just happened about 10 minutes ago?

My dad and I were watching videos together online (Yes, cute puppy videos. lol)

And all of a sudden the lights went out.

I instantly freaked cause I'm still afraid of the dark and can you blame me? lol..

So I stood up and used my laptop as a flashlight and quickly walked into my bedroom looking for one of those flashlight thingys you hook to a book you're reading.

While doing so I was praying.

"Oh, God. Please please no no."

And about 10 seconds later the lights flickered on. We (my dad and I) walked outside and our home and one of the neighbors (three plex) next to us were the only ones with the lights on for about 2/3 minutes.

Thank you, Lord!

 

[MissesDenim]

Haa thats cool, its like once you get a deeper walk in him a lot of "weird" things happen (benefiting) you, which is like xD. Its hard to cope knowing what you know and other people disbelieving or putting it down. But when they see things like that or some other miraculous miracle, its worth seeing their faces :]


But you hear them laughing at times?? That is CREEPY. Yet funny because one minute they are laughing then BOOM *rebukes* then they all flee like lmao no nads

BUT HAPPY CHRISTIAN WEEK AND RESURRECTION DAY TO AAAALL I HOPE YALL HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!! :]

 

[SwanPslam48]

Haa thats cool, its like once you get a deeper walk in him a lot of "weird" things happen (benefiting) you, which is like xD. Its hard to cope knowing what you know and other people disbelieving or putting it down. But when they see things like that or some other miraculous miracle, its worth seeing their faces :]


But you hear them laughing at times?? That is CREEPY. Yet funny because one minute they are laughing then BOOM *rebukes* then they all flee like lmao no nads

BUT HAPPY CHRISTIAN WEEK AND RESURRECTION DAY TO AAAALL I HOPE YALL HAVE A BLESSED DAY!!!! :]

Just got the gift of tongues tonight!! THANK GOD JESUS AMEN!

 

[simplee_mandee]

Just got the gift of tongues tonight!! THANK GOD JESUS AMEN!

Wow thats great! I'm so glad to hear how much God is working through you! I been praying for you !

Yes, It's true. I tried it once just went they started to appear and I heard them laugh at me. That's why I was so hesitant to try rebuking it again.

I swear sometimes they'd put thoughts in my head that would make me sick to my stomach and I'd hear them chuckle.


I'd love to email you. I'll message you when I get the chance.

Same thing has happened to me but in a dream. Idk why I think sometimes they are able to get into you dreams. I have had dreams were I have tried to rebuke them in Jesus's name and they just laugh and attack me but sometimes if I start to sing a Christian song like I sang "Yes Jesus Loves Me" they would get scared and leave.

I think because when you sing to the Lord it increases you're faith and its also a form of worshiping so they didn't like that. Don't worry if your not a good singer I'm not either, but either way God appriciates it .

 

[Jonny Doe]

this is one wild, eloquent narrative of a testimony i tell you.

good to see you come to God, praise Him and prayers for you to get stronger in Christ

 

[SwanPslam48]

this is one wild, eloquent narrative of a testimony i tell you.

good to see you come to God, praise Him and prayers for you to get stronger in Christ

Amen. Thank you.

 

[LiveInMercyAndTruth]

Amen. Thank you.

How old are you?

 

[SwanPslam48]

How old are you?

20.

 

[LiveInMercyAndTruth]

Do you mind if I ask you some questions that would indicate that I do not believe your story? They may offend you.

 

[SwanPslam48]

Do you mind if I ask you some questions that would indicate that I do not believe your story? They may offend you.

Sure. Just be nice please.

 

[LiveInMercyAndTruth]

Sure. Just be nice please.

Why did it take you so long to reply. I saw you online here after I posted it. That is my first question.

You were 16 years old at the very beginning of all this. Is this correct?

 

[SwanPslam48]

Why did it take you so long to reply. I saw you online here after I posted it. That is my first question.

You were 16 years old at the very beginning of all this. Is this correct?

I didn't feel like replying at that moment. (Being honest here.)Sorry.

No. My 16th birthday was spent at the hospital with my grandmother who was dying.

Let's see.

I remember my cat died on my father's birthday in sept.

I remember turning vegetarian a little later because I couldn't stand looking at meat because it reminded me that I was eating something that could of played once and lived. I remember dating it on november the 4th. I wanted it to be november the 5th after V for vendetta but I couldn't wait.

My birthday is in jan 23/92.


I'll go check. I got this cd with my cat's x rays on it. It has the date on it.

Correct me if I'm wrong because I'm horrible at math.

9/7/10

4/18/12

The difference between these two dates is:
1 years, 7 months, 10 days, 16 hours, 47 minutes and 53 seconds.

And now I'll try to do the math.

I'm guessing 18? I can't tell. Honestly.

 

[SwanPslam48]

You were 16 years old at the very beginning of all this. Is this correct?

Oh.

I think you meant with "When my grandmother died four years ago I started doubting their existance.
Then almost two year ago my childhood pet died."

Right?
:o

To be honest I don't consider that to be when it all started. I mean it added to the reason of unbelief but it wasn't where it had started.

I don't even know if it has like a starting line.

I mean God wasn't a big part of my life. I remember my uncle telling me "You know we have a father and we're all brothers and sisters?"

I replied with "Na uh!"

Before that my father tried to teach my about God and Jesus.

"So Jesus is the dad and God is the son?" ( I was real young.)

My dad: NO!

The most I knew about Jesus was from movies and 20/20 specials. Once in a blue moon we (my mother and father and myself) would go see this easter play. I think 3 times I seen it.

My family doesn't go to church or anything. I don't know if I would even call them lukewarm. I pray for them everyday though.

But anyway, yes. I guess. I put this here on this website (my grandma's death) as the start of the story. Because other wise it would be a lot longer.

I'd tell it all if you want. Just stuff adding to the reasons of unbelif until cat dying just gave me solid reason to believe there isn't a God.

I remember holding her in the arms. I could feel her bones as we drove down the night road. I looked at her and knew we weren't going to be able to save her. I remember the exact moment when I thought; "There can't be a God."

Because NOT my cat. Not my only friend. Not after everything that's happened.. No. There can't be.

 

[LiveInMercyAndTruth]

Oh.

I think you meant with "When my grandmother died four years ago I started doubting their existance.
Then almost two year ago my childhood pet died."

Right?
:o

To be honest I don't consider that to be when it all started. I mean it added to the reason of unbelief but it wasn't where it had started.

I don't even know if it has like a starting line.

I mean God wasn't a big part of my life. I remember my uncle telling me "You know we have a father and we're all brothers and sisters?"

I replied with "Na uh!"

Before that my father tried to teach my about God and Jesus.

"So Jesus is the dad and God is the son?" ( I was real young.)

My dad: NO!

The most I knew about Jesus was from movies and 20/20 specials. Once in a blue moon we (my mother and father and myself) would go see this easter play. I think 3 times I seen it.

My family doesn't go to church or anything. I don't know if I would even call them lukewarm. I pray for them everyday though.

But anyway, yes. I guess. I put this here on this website (my grandma's death) as the start of the story. Because other wise it would be a lot longer.

I'd tell it all if you want. Just stuff adding to the reasons of unbelif until cat dying just gave me solid reason to believe there isn't a God.

I remember holding her in the arms. I could feel her bones as we drove down the night road. I looked at her and knew we weren't going to be able to save her. I remember the exact moment when I thought; "There can't be a God."

Because NOT my cat. Not my only friend. Not after everything that's happened.. No. There can't be.

Just forget anything I have said to you about it. I am sorry to bother you. Its none of my business anyway. The Lord bless you to bless him. amen