I'm pretty sure I'm a bad person.

[UTVols345]

Ok so here is whats going on.

I'm living a lie. I know what I am doing is wrong, but if I come clean now, I will lose everything I've worked sooo hard for. Everything in my life is now going right because of this. I feel like I am on a successful path.

On the other side of things, I feel TERRIBLE about what I'm doing. I have so much guilt. I've asked God to forgive me, but in the pit of my stomach I don't think He has. I honestly feel like He will not forgive me if I am going to plan on living out this lie to end.

Ever since I became aware of what I'm doing, there is so much guilt. When I pray, the guilt becomes even stronger. I don't feel His love. I don't have that fire in my heart anymore.

Please know that I am not a pathological liar. I rarely feel the need to tell a lie. But I can't tell the truth on this one. I will lose everything.

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

 

[BornAgainGrace414]

Ok so here is whats going on.

I'm living a lie. I know what I am doing is wrong, but if I come clean now, I will lose everything I've worked sooo hard for. Everything in my life is now going right because of this. I feel like I am on a successful path.

On the other side of things, I feel TERRIBLE about what I'm doing. I have so much guilt. I've asked God to forgive me, but in the pit of my stomach I don't think He has. I honestly feel like He will not forgive me if I am going to plan on living out this lie to end.

Ever since I became aware of what I'm doing, there is so much guilt. When I pray, the guilt becomes even stronger. I don't feel His love. I don't have that fire in my heart anymore.

Please know that I am not a pathological liar. I rarely feel the need to tell a lie. But I can't tell the truth on this one. I will lose everything.

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

Proverbs 23:15-16
My son, if your heart is wise, then my heart will be glad; my inmost being will rejoice when your lips speak what is right

Sounds like you have your conviction. The way you're making it sound is that this is a big lie, the obvious answer is to confess. Perhaps if we know more about the situation we could level with you or point you in another direction if it is in fact something that would make you 'lose' everything.

 

[UTVols345]

I'm sorry, I don't really feel comfortable saying what it is. (no offense at all!!)

 

[Pal Handy]

If I were you I would seek out a woman of God who loves the Lord and
serves Him and clearly has the love of God expressed in her life and
seek her counsel.

You really need to talk with someone who can hear all of the story
and give you Godly advice and help you to make peace between
yourself and God.

 

[BornAgainGrace414]

If I were you I would seek out a woman of God who loves the Lord and
serves Him and clearly has the love of God expressed in her life and
seek her counsel.

You really need to talk with someone who can hear all of the story
and give you Godly advice and help you to make peace between
yourself and God.

^^This.

 

[BFine]

Your answer is in your "footnote".
“Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people. Hold firmly to the word of life; then, on the day of Christ’s return, I will be proud that I did not run the race in vain and that my work was not useless.”
Philippians 2:14-16
Do what it says.

A life built upon a lie will lead to ruin...King David's "secret"
nearly brought down his whole kingdom and nearly destroyed all of his family.

 

[forGod1]

you feel the conviction..most bad people don't. I'd say you're in a good position.. you know Christ, you know his power over you.. now to stop what you're doing, because if you can't give up everything for God, you probably can't get into Heaven.

 

[CounselorForChrist]

If your life is built on lies, the longer you wait to come clean the more difficult it will be to come clean. Not to mention you will only be able to keep the lies going for so long efore they break free one way or another. And also the longer you wait, the more people might distrust you if you they find out you kept putting off coming clean.

The most important thing is, what will God think of this when your stand before him? I'd come clean now because while people can be mad at your lies, it won't matter in the end. This life is temporary, where we go next is forever. Make the right choice.

I felt conviction about some things I was doing in my life. I didn't want to tell anyone. At first when I did, people were mad, but then everyone started supporting me. And coming clean and chaning my life was amazing. I literally felt Gods grace. It felt like a ton of weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Once you feel that, you will wonder why you waited so long!

This doesn't mean life will be perfect. You may go back to what you are doing. But you have to fight that and pray God gives you strength. Through God nothing is impossible!

 

[If Not For Grace]

You say you know its wrong. Then you also know, you need to change it. This does not have to be an internet public confession, but you need to take steps toward truth, lies will always come out in time-so get out now while you are young. If telling the truth will cause you to loose someone or something YOU never had them/it anyway.

 

[NewUser777]

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

There's nothing you can do to make God not love you.

That said, you know what you have to do. Now do it.

 

[TouchingTestimony]

Ok so here is whats going on.

I'm living a lie. I know what I am doing is wrong, but if I come clean now, I will lose everything I've worked sooo hard for. Everything in my life is now going right because of this. I feel like I am on a successful path.

On the other side of things, I feel TERRIBLE about what I'm doing. I have so much guilt. I've asked God to forgive me, but in the pit of my stomach I don't think He has. I honestly feel like He will not forgive me if I am going to plan on living out this lie to end.

Ever since I became aware of what I'm doing, there is so much guilt. When I pray, the guilt becomes even stronger. I don't feel His love. I don't have that fire in my heart anymore.

Please know that I am not a pathological liar. I rarely feel the need to tell a lie. But I can't tell the truth on this one. I will lose everything.

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

"Do everything without complaining and arguing, so that no one can criticize you. Live clean, innocent lives as children of God, shining like bright lights in a world full of crooked and perverse people."

all in good time, perhaps

 

[Lindas Place]

Ok so here is whats going on.

I'm living a lie. I know what I am doing is wrong, but if I come clean now, I will lose everything I've worked sooo hard for. Everything in my life is now going right because of this. I feel like I am on a successful path.

On the other side of things, I feel TERRIBLE about what I'm doing. I have so much guilt. I've asked God to forgive me, but in the pit of my stomach I don't think He has. I honestly feel like He will not forgive me if I am going to plan on living out this lie to end.

Ever since I became aware of what I'm doing, there is so much guilt. When I pray, the guilt becomes even stronger. I don't feel His love. I don't have that fire in my heart anymore.

Please know that I am not a pathological liar. I rarely feel the need to tell a lie. But I can't tell the truth on this one. I will lose everything.

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

I think the sin you are feeling guilty about is the sin of not believing God forgives you…. Been there done that… God does not lie, He said He forgives us, believe Him.

 

[gideon123]

You can't be on a truly successful path
if you are walking on a crooked road.

You know what's wrong.
You do need to fix it.
You may have different choices about how you fix it ... but a fix is required.

To walk an upright life in God's eyes is the hardest thing that any of us will ever try to do. But it is also the most worthwhile thing that we will ever attempt to do.

If your intentional sin involves sex ... stop now.
If your intentional sin involves stealing from someone else - even indirectly ... stop now.
If your intentional sin involves harming someone else, or yourself, stop now.
If in doubt ... please consider a private confession to a pastor that you can trust.

These words are offered in love and wisdom.
They may not be easy - but you know what you must do.

And by the way - God can definitely seem absent from your life,
or at the other end of the universe, if you are committing intentional sin.
It really can separate you from Him.

Gideon123

 

[UTVols345]

Thank you for all of your words, guys.

Gideon, this particular sin has nothing to do with anything you mentioned. Those things, I could never do.

I am pretty sure I have made my decision on what I'm going to do.

 

[EC BELIEVER]

You don't say what the sin is but only that it's a lie. I can't imagine what kind of lie could cause you to lose everything you have "worked for" but I can tell you than anything is worth losing in order to be in right relation with God. If you've gained anything through lying than you never had it anyway. If you pray and only feel stronger guilt that's what I call conviction. You should confess your sin and stop living the lie. Whatever you lose for Christ's sake He will restore to you in His own perfect way and time. No room in heaven for liars!

 

[gideon123]

Sounds good. Good luck!
You won't be sorry

Gideon123

 

[UTVols345]

 

[UTVols345]

You don't say what the sin is but only that it's a lie. I can't imagine what kind of lie could cause you to lose everything you have "worked for"

I won't say what it is. I'm not comfortable saying it publicly. And its a pretty unique situation. Not one that someone could usually think of to be the norm.

 

[GodsDaughter1981]

Loving Heavenly Father, please give UTVols345 the strength to stand on Your word and your truth at this difficult time for her. Help her to understand that she cannot EVER be separated from your love, and that with your strength she can break these chains of deceit that bind her now. Father, you came to set us free, so we could live lives of decency and honesty, and this is what I'm asking you to do with my sister in Christ now. Also, touch the hearts and minds of those around her, so that when she does feel ready to speak the truth, they won't judge and condemn her, and they will come to understand why she took the course of action she did.

I pray this in Your precious name. Amen.

@ UTVols345:

Romans 8:39

 

[lemon-aid stand]

Ok so here is whats going on.

I'm living a lie. I know what I am doing is wrong, but if I come clean now, I will lose everything I've worked sooo hard for. Everything in my life is now going right because of this. I feel like I am on a successful path.

On the other side of things, I feel TERRIBLE about what I'm doing. I have so much guilt. I've asked God to forgive me, but in the pit of my stomach I don't think He has. I honestly feel like He will not forgive me if I am going to plan on living out this lie to end.

Ever since I became aware of what I'm doing, there is so much guilt. When I pray, the guilt becomes even stronger. I don't feel His love. I don't have that fire in my heart anymore.

Please know that I am not a pathological liar. I rarely feel the need to tell a lie. But I can't tell the truth on this one. I will lose everything.

I dunno. I've lost hope that He loves and forgives me because of my intentional sin.

i would have to agree with your own personal assessment of yourself.. you are bad.. i am sorry to admit..you are right in stating that you are living a lie.. but, the true lie is that you imply that you are saved and then willingly continue in sin.. it is doubtful that you were ever saved.. true christians cannot live with the conviction.. in fact. we would rather die than risk our salvation.. some sins are hard to overcome.. but to say that you could lose everything if you come clean.. believe me. that statement is the same as spitting in the face of Christ.. anyhow.. i won't waste anymore of your valuable time.. i always have a hard time respecting anyone that chooses personal gain over Christs sacrifice for them on the cross.