My question is this: How can a Native American serve a country that stole its land from their ancestors and that either forcibly removed or relentlessly slaughtered their ancestors? In all honesty, I have a problem with that. I feel the need for a disclaimer. So, here it is: *My Disclaimer: First and foremost, I want to say that I realize that this topic may upset some, even offend some, but neither one is my true intent. Please know that I'm honestly seeking resolution and peace of heart in this issue. I would like to discuss this because it has been a place of contemptment for me for some time now. I have found that I simply cannot resolve it on my own. I realize that I'm in dire need of Godly counsel and advice. Thank you, in advance, for your understanding and patience.*
I think a little background information about myself would be helpful, so those who read this will know where I'm coming from. I'm of Cherokee and Choctaw descent. My birth mother was full blood Cherokee, my father mixed blood Choctaw, Scottish, and Irish. I know I must look more like my father than my mother, because I have red hair, green eyes, and am fair skinned, and like most mixed blood NDNs, I inherited the genetic traits of high cheek bones and very thick hair. My real name is even an originated Cherokee name, which means "Clothed in Splendor". Despite my outward appearance, I'm full blood NDN in my heart. As anyone who personal knows me would know, I am very drawn to my NDN ancestry and heritage. I strive to learn all I can about my ancestry, heritage, and culture. I taught myself to speak Cherokee. I'm now teaching my 7 children to speak it as well. And I'm fully dedicated to preserving whatever I can regarding NDN languages, NDN culture, and NDN heritage. Now with all that said and done, I must admit that through all my soul searching and personal research on Indian ancestry, culture, and history, I have lost my desire to honor and respect America, and I will never get it back. I simply don't see it ever coming back, in all honesty.
Before I set out on my spiritual journey to discover who I am, where I came from, and who God created me to be (this is still an ongoing process, by the way), I was very patriotic. I honored America and its military, I felt proud to be an American, and I also celebrated the 4th of July, with no ill feelings toward this country. But now, I feel nothing but contempt toward America. After all I have learned, I cannot bring myself to honor it and respect it no longer. My conscience will not allow me to do either. I no longer celebrate the 4th of July. I no longer fly the American flag. However, out of respect for my husband, I didn't throw the American flag that we own in the trash. Quite honestly, I would have, if it had been up to me. I feel incredibly sickened when I think about the atrocities that were committed against the American NDNs before and after the birth of America. I honestly feel that the birth of America only brought death and destruction to the American NDNs. I wholeheartedly agree with Chief Black Kettle when he said that the white man were like locusts, devouring everything in his path. Anywhere we stand in this country is still stolen Indian land. I know that this fact doesn't bother many Americans, but it causes me great pain, guilt, and sadness. How can I honor America when I feel this way? And how can I resolve my objection to Native Americans serving in this nation's military? What say you? And please be nice to me. Thanks.
I think a little background information about myself would be helpful, so those who read this will know where I'm coming from. I'm of Cherokee and Choctaw descent. My birth mother was full blood Cherokee, my father mixed blood Choctaw, Scottish, and Irish. I know I must look more like my father than my mother, because I have red hair, green eyes, and am fair skinned, and like most mixed blood NDNs, I inherited the genetic traits of high cheek bones and very thick hair. My real name is even an originated Cherokee name, which means "Clothed in Splendor". Despite my outward appearance, I'm full blood NDN in my heart. As anyone who personal knows me would know, I am very drawn to my NDN ancestry and heritage. I strive to learn all I can about my ancestry, heritage, and culture. I taught myself to speak Cherokee. I'm now teaching my 7 children to speak it as well. And I'm fully dedicated to preserving whatever I can regarding NDN languages, NDN culture, and NDN heritage. Now with all that said and done, I must admit that through all my soul searching and personal research on Indian ancestry, culture, and history, I have lost my desire to honor and respect America, and I will never get it back. I simply don't see it ever coming back, in all honesty.
Before I set out on my spiritual journey to discover who I am, where I came from, and who God created me to be (this is still an ongoing process, by the way), I was very patriotic. I honored America and its military, I felt proud to be an American, and I also celebrated the 4th of July, with no ill feelings toward this country. But now, I feel nothing but contempt toward America. After all I have learned, I cannot bring myself to honor it and respect it no longer. My conscience will not allow me to do either. I no longer celebrate the 4th of July. I no longer fly the American flag. However, out of respect for my husband, I didn't throw the American flag that we own in the trash. Quite honestly, I would have, if it had been up to me. I feel incredibly sickened when I think about the atrocities that were committed against the American NDNs before and after the birth of America. I honestly feel that the birth of America only brought death and destruction to the American NDNs. I wholeheartedly agree with Chief Black Kettle when he said that the white man were like locusts, devouring everything in his path. Anywhere we stand in this country is still stolen Indian land. I know that this fact doesn't bother many Americans, but it causes me great pain, guilt, and sadness. How can I honor America when I feel this way? And how can I resolve my objection to Native Americans serving in this nation's military? What say you? And please be nice to me. Thanks.
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