I will tell you about myself. I very well may get banned for this post, but oh well. Please excuse me if I seemed pretentious and pompous earlier. I act like this mainly when I'm on guard...
My name is Jarred and I live in mildly rural Pennsylvania. I'm currently just a high school student hoping to do something good in the world, make a difference. I really don't hang out with friends (only occasional), but rather with with my girlfriend who I am
extremely devoted to. My dream has always been to be a modern day Socrates, just to make people think, to question everything - to make people dream bigger than just living an average life full of self-indulgence and stupidity - to open people's eye up to compassion and understanding and acceptance - to make the world better.
I was raised in a Christian family and became a very Christian child. For the majority of my Childhood, God was an extreme part of my life. I always attended Sunday school, I went to Bible Camp (or something?), and hell, I wanted to go to a private Christian school.
Though, I never really KNEW God or Jesus. I was merely told that God created everything and Jesus was his son who died to save me from Hell. I never understood why Jesus had to die to save me, but I just went with it. Eventually I actually wanted to LEARN about God... and when I did read and learn about him, things didn't add up to me. Things just flat out didn't make sense. Of course, you surely know most of the arguments (and many of you apparently refuse to listen). This caused me to lose my faith during the beginning of Middle School. I even came on this very forum begging people to help me truly find God. All failed.
I became very depressed and I didn't know where I was headed in life. My entire childhood I was told that God had a very important plan for me in life and that I was to grow up to do something amazing. This idea was now gone. The thought of an afterlife - gone. God watching over me - gone. I began arguing with my parents. Had no friends. Started doing worse in school (I've never gotten anything lower than a B in school, though...). All starting looking bleak to me. I decided to look at religion after religion after religion trying to find the truth that really spoke to me.
There were three issues that were my main problem with Christianity:
1) Why did God have to become Jesus and die for our sins, rather than God just forgiving humans? We could argue with for hours about this, and not one person has given me a good, logical, intelligent answer.
2) The concept of Hell I find to be EXTREMELY sadistic, and no amount of reasoning will let me see otherwise. One lifetime of sin, no matter how bad - not even for someone who would murder my family or even Hitler - deserves an ETERNITY of torture and torment. That is not a just punishment. And the logic behind Hell, not just ethics, makes no sense too.
3) What makes Christianity more true than any other faith-based religion? This is the reason for making this thread.
Eventually, though, I met a girl and we became like yin and yang - inseparable. Its not a normal relationship. Some may consider it obsession. We are nearly always together. I know that this attachment if bad - but of well. And when I finally started becoming happy again - I find something just as fantastic: Buddhism.
Christianity teaches us that we will be punished for our negative actions.
Buddhism teaches we will be punished by them. (Although punishment is a bad term)
Christianity teaches us to have beliefs.
Buddhism teaches us to let go of them. (Disregarding superstitions in different Buddhist sects, such as Tibetan.)
Christianity teaches us that true happiness will be in the future. (Heaven)
Buddhism teaches us that true happiness can be right now.
So, I became a Buddhist. It just kind of rang with me. An Agnostic-Atheist Zen Buddhist. Sure, I am a very bad Buddhist - but I try. I love religious debate, and I am a very judging person. I hate stupidity and irrationality. I am a bit shallow at times. I pretty much just kind of fail at being a Buddhist, but that's okay. I'll get better.
Now that you know me... Hi.
PS: Another reason I am SO against Christianity is because for many Christians, if you don't follow the same beliefs, you are a damned human being who should act just like them. They push their views on others and say that you are a terrible person if you don't follow them. Its horrible.