I agree with exploding boy. My whole point is that people are not going to flock to you because you have a hard time communicating with others, especially not when you're acting as pessimistic as you are now.
Dare i say it, they're not going to baby you and spoon feed you affection. Any that do will be short lived. I don't mean to be harsh, i mean to be frank. You honestly don't seem like you would even want to change. Please, PLEASE correct me if i'm wrong there, but it seems like you expect, EXPECT people to take pity on you and befriend you out of this and this alone. I understand you as i have been in similar shoes, but it also angers me.
Listen man, we're offering help. We can't carry you through whatever you're going through, but we can ease your burdens, however slight. Many people have suggested asking God to help you, and I really don't see how that would worsen your situation in any way. I'm not saying you gotta believe what i believe, I'm suggesting for you to try asking God to help. The worst that can happen is nothing. The best that can happen is something good will come of it.
Regardless if you decide to ask God or not to help you, you have to want to change and grow if you want to get out of this situation. It also reminds me of a story.
Once there was this man out on the ocean, deep sea fishing. In the middle of the afternoon, his boat started to sink. Something had left a hole in the bottom of the boat. The man prayed to God for help, to deliver him from his plight. He continued to ask and ask and ask but nothing was happening. He began to get frustrated, but decided that God would, without doubt, come to save him.
After an hour, a lone boat wandered by. The driver of the boat asked the man if he needed help, to which he replied, "No thanks, I'm waiting on God to save me." The driver argued with the man for a while, then drove on in frustration at the man's stubbornness.
After a few more hours, yet another boat came. The driver asked the man if he needed help, to which he replied, "No thanks, I'm still waiting on God to save me." The driver argued for a bit, then drove on astounded at the man's unwillingness to accept help.
Eventually, after several more hours and two more boats stopping to ask the man for help, the man became exhausted, and drown.
The man awoke in heaven, and discovered that he was dead. The man eventually ran into God and asked him why God had not saved him, why he let him drown.
God replied, "I sent you four boats, and you rejected all of them. What more would you ask of me?"
Moral of the story, you have to be willing to take advice and help if you want to be delivered from something, whether it be a life threatening situation or not being able to find a girl, or maybe even a friend to bond with. It's fine if you don't want to listen to what i have to say, but there are some truly kind people on here that are more than willing to help you. Don't shove them away by saying that they'll never know how you feel or that things are hopeless. It's very rare to find those people that care, last thing you want to do is push them away.
If you do not want to change, then i don't know what to say. I believe a great deal of your problem is in your head. I'm not saying that you'll be able to "score any chick" if you change, but I think you'll be able to find someone who cares about you and even like yourself a bit more.
