More confused than any mere mortal should be

[cheesepuff12]

This is my first post, and i think it will be my most serious. I was a satanist. I worshiped the fallen angel with praise and dowelled on his awesome power. I felt the inner rage within me and embraced the sinners flame. But no longer will i do so. Recently i have changed. converted to Christianity. and repented. Why would one who has felt the power of the underworld suddenly change? because the power of love is far stronger than the power of evil. But the problem is, i fear i have fallen in love with an Angel. I do believe i have experienced divine intervention, and I have seen what it has led me to. But the question remains- is it right for me to be in love with an Angel? Is it right for her to be in love with me? I have been with this holy being for 5 years now. If i go to hell, that's one thing, but i couldn't bear to see her go down with me. Do i continue to love the 1 thing that changed me for the better? the 1 thing that has brought me back to the light of God and escape the clutches of the ultimate sinner? I'm so confused. I had felt the awesome power of Satan, and i gave it all up for her. She meant more to me than anything, and i didn't want to endanger her, so i changed for her. I have reason to believe she is a real and true Angel. what should i do? Shes is not from this world, that much is clear. i just want whats best for her. Is it a sin for me to love her? why does God play me like this? does he plan to strip her away from me as soon as i trust his holiness? WHAT DOES GOD WANT FROM ME! I DEMAND TO KNOW! IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE WHO CAN TELL ME!? GAH! I'm so confused...

 

[powermadd400ex]

The angels are spiritual beings...idk if they can love or have physical attraction like that.

 

[cheesepuff12]

I do believe that the entity that is an Angel, has changed long since the bible came about. Thus i do believe that an Angel is much more than a spiritual being. Although this deduction has only come about through my personal beliefs, and so it is open to interpretation.

 

[powermadd400ex]

well that's your opinion I suppose. but I believe the Bible to be God's word so I trust what it says about teh angels to be true.

 

[solarwave]

Interesting. So is this actually true? No offence but its not the type of story you hear everyday, but Im willing to believe you since no harm comes from it.

To be honest none of us here are experts, is the a pastor or preist you can talk to about this?

The best answer I can give is that I don't think angels are humans are ment to be in love (I don't know if it is even possible) and that angels are just ment to point us towards God (the greatest love).

Mind me asking a few questions? How do you know there is an angel present when there is? Could it not be God Himself?

I hope I can be of some help

 

[HarborOrange]

Hmmm, interesting.
I've never heard of anything quite like this before.
I mean, personally, if the only reason you have become faithful to YHWH is due to the fact that you love this angel, then you may want to reconsider where your heart is. Angels, demons, etc... are all in a world far beyond our comprehension, and it is only through YHWH's immense love that we can even begin to have a relationship with him and know him. I mean, I've just never heard of anything of this sort, and I don't believe there is anything in Adonai's Word... So, I don't know.

I'm not saying that it isn't possible because there's no way of knowing, but I find it incomprehensible for an angel to share any type of love for a human being. Sure, they love, but it's not a type of romantic love, and I don't know of any relationships that humans share with angels...
However, be cautious that this angel doesn't replace YHWH himself. You should love Him more than you love the angel, for if you love the angel more than YHWH, then that is idolatry.
Another thing is that I want to say that you should be cautious, throughout my life I've seen the deceitful things that Satan does, if you are not careful, you may fall back into Satanism if this angel is in fact just something that Satan is putting in your mind.

I'm not saying this because I think the angel is of Satan, no, I'm just warning you to be cautious. Always be sure to put YHWH before anything and everything in your life, he is first, no matter what. No matter how much you love that angel, be sure you love YHWH more, for through his incomprehensible amount of love, he gave his son Yaheshua for our salvation, for our lives.
Perhaps the angel is YHWH himself. I don't know.
There are so many possibilities about it all, and only you know.

 

[ks777]

She was obviously sent to save you from eternity in fire, God would have planned for her to help you when she was born, that's one of the things she would have been called for. It might sound stupid, but God has plans for everyone, and hers was to rescue you from hell. Love her for it.

EDIT: Unless she's not a physical being? I got the impression she was an earthly angel. If not, then I'm not sure. Check the fruits of the angel, if the fruit is good and it brings you to Christ, then it's not satan.

 

[Anonymousftw]

The angels are spiritual beings...idk if they can love or have physical attraction like that.

They are ASTRAL beings, not spiritual. That means that they have great intelligence, but under-developed emotional bodies composed of a different form of matter (one that a person can't normally see).

Humans are more like spiritual beings because we have greater emotion than intelligence.

CASUAL beings have an equal amount of intelligence and emotion

 

[Mela Monkey]

So angels are made from anti-matter?

 

[ciaphas]

So angels are made from anti-matter?

How on earth did you arrive to that conclusion??!?!!?

Does anyone else think this sounds like a troll? He claims he recently converted from satanism but has

been with this holy being for 5 years now

. Sounds like someone is having a laugh to me.

 

[Mela Monkey]

Because Anonymousftw said they're made from a different form of matter lol

 

[ciaphas]

I think he was going more along the; ethereal, mystic matter. Antimatter is a bit impractical in the parts of the universe filled with matter.

 

[hudechek]

I would prescribe Jesus Christ to you. Follow His example and you will find the River that will sweep you off your feet and you will be baptized in INTENSE love, his Radical Passionate Love will help you out my friend.