come to a couple of possible conclusions

[Healed_IHS]

I have been sober for over a year, and thought things were going well... I had a job that I enjoyed and thought it was the right to register for school.

Lost that job, started school, now can't get a job due to being in school (!).

Ran out of money and been selling plasma for the little cash it gives. Second month Dad had to bail me out for rent money.

I have been attending church pretty regularly over the past year, and a consistent prayer life also. I don't think that everything should be perfect because of that, but have stopped praying. I used to pray daily, thanking God for my blessings and begging to have a door opened so I could get a job and not worry about being homeless (spent several years "on the street").... no luck.

So the conclusions that I came to are
A. There is no God (I DON'T believe this, but a possibility)
B. God cares but is powerless to do anything about (why bother worshiping a helpless God, I am helpless enough by myself)
C. God DOESN'T care, and is in fact getting his "jollies" from my predicament.

Sure, the bible says struggles build perseverance, but what good is that when your life keeps heading downhill? Perseverance should be a factor in your life moving forward.

This has me all torn up as I was doing well in my faith walk, but now....

Any input is appreciated. Thanks.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Being another one who has been in a rough situation where nothing seemed to be working out or everything was so hard, if that's okay with you.

I don't understand why we go through things and have to struggle (other than this imperfect world), but looking back I can see how many people that God spoke to, because they saw how God worked in my life. Of course, that's no comfort in the middle of the pain, but it helps me to feel that my pain was not in vain.

Please hang in there and don't give up on God... in my experience He doesn't always answer as i want, but He always provides what I need.

 

[tapero]

I have been sober for over a year, and thought things were going well... I had a job that I enjoyed and thought it was the right to register for school.

Lost that job, started school, now can't get a job due to being in school (!).

Ran out of money and been selling plasma for the little cash it gives. Second month Dad had to bail me out for rent money.

I have been attending church pretty regularly over the past year, and a consistent prayer life also. I don't think that everything should be perfect because of that, but have stopped praying. I used to pray daily, thanking God for my blessings and begging to have a door opened so I could get a job and not worry about being homeless (spent several years "on the street").... no luck.

So the conclusions that I came to are
A. There is no God (I DON'T believe this, but a possibility)
B. God cares but is powerless to do anything about (why bother worshiping a helpless God, I am helpless enough by myself)
C. God DOESN'T care, and is in fact getting his "jollies" from my predicament.

Sure, the bible says struggles build perseverance, but what good is that when your life keeps heading downhill? Perseverance should be a factor in your life moving forward.

This has me all torn up as I was doing well in my faith walk, but now....

Any input is appreciated. Thanks.

Hi, I'm sorry for what you are going through.

(ETA: Please know that this post in no way is saying others have it worse, in this post, am trying to show, the things which occur in this world; to us and others, and the question of why... and yet we know God is for us, and we know God will see you and us through no matter what happens.)

Friend, the situation is and I see it a lot, people think that God does what God may not do. Due to such see many leave Christ.

In the world which is full of people God loves wholly and perfectly, which is all humans;

but in this world, little babies are raped;

people die of starvation;

people in america are on the street even though they are working; whole family on the street;

people jobless for years;

illness which incapacitates;

accidents which maim and kill;

no health insurance, no health care for millions, if not billions;

no water to drink;

weather disasters;

and the list is endless.

God does no evil. He does not make people sick, he does not make people starve, and etc.

But we also know that the above list is truth.

And we also know that God loves each of those and us more than we can ever dream or imagine.

So with that knowledge, one has to hang on to what we know about God, what He's given us;

He will never leave us or forsake us;

He works all things to our good (not at all saying he caused the bad, as he does not, but he works all things to our good) though we may not see it now, maybe see it later, or maybe not at all

He is with us in whatever we go through.

He never intended us to live in this valley of the shadow of death, but we do.

And He's rescued us, by us being in Christ;

though as you said, you know we will not be without suffering and struggling in this world, the bible says such.

says that evil prosper while good perish;

So brother hang on, as God is our all.

We may be killed at some future point for being believers in Christ, such is occuring now, in persecuted countries.

Those in such countries, if they are believers and are found out, it may be that due to such, they are not allowed to work, can have no job, so no food, no place to live perhaps, they may only have a corner of a page of scripture and be all they know except what others have passed on to them by word of mouth. They are in prisons, and being tortured and killed for their faith in Christ.

This happens in different places, but I am specifically thinking of China. And I don't have anywhere near the faith, not even close to what these brothers and sisters have as they say, please do not pray that this stops occuring to us, because due to such the gospel is spreading like wildfire. As well they say, they consider it an honor to suffer for God.

Please know I am not writing any of the above to be saying, look at others suffering and how can we complain. I would never say such a thing.

Everything we go through is just as painful and hard and awful to us no matter what it is.

As you see yourself, how serious it is in your case that you wonder about God. As to His care for you.

We know there is a battle going on, and we have no idea of what is going on in that, we have no idea.

We know that God is for us. We know if we pull away, He never will. We know God is good..

I've not yet been through fires as a Christian which I am aware that due to my age, and medical conditions etc, that at sometime in the near future I may be devastatingly sick.

Or I could go out tomorrow and be maimed in an accident, or hit a pedestrian and go to jail, anything can happen to us.

We can only get through this life with Jesus, at least us who believe I mean, we have more than those who do not know Jesus as we have God in our lives. We have truths which sustain us and God with us.

At times I think about something Paul says in the book of Corinthians which troubles me sometimes;

We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired even of life.

I think when I read this, oh God, I don't know if I could handle going through that, and yet I also know, that God will help me through whatever it is occurs.

Even if homeless, as have been so before, which is one of my biggest fears as could happen in a moment, and not just to me but to many and with no where to turn, no one to take me in.

But hang in there brother, and know that what we have is spiritual wealth in Jesus, in as much as we are able to accept it with our understanding and feelings and however we are at in our walk, and we are all in different places.

praying for a job for you,
tapero

 

[Johnnz]

If you chose to attend school how were you planning to support yourself? Did you check with your job about their attitude towards to going to school before you enrolled?

John
NZ

 

[Healed_IHS]

At the time of enrolling I had a full time job, which I got let go of prior to the start of class, though I had a "promise" of employment, whatever that means.

 

[keeperOFsecrets618]

I wanna share a story with you. I know I'm only 15 so I might not have amazing advice for you but please just hear me out...


Both my parents are alcoholics and drug addicits. Its a hard life and at one point I thought I had to have the same one but I had to hit rock bottom before I could realize that I wan't like my parents and that I also wasn't alone. See I was addicted to drugs and many many times I took them at lethal amounts for my size. I had been struggling with God at the time too. I thought he hated me and that he just didn't care because he wasn't putting me through all the pain of dealing with my parents and I also had a really lonely feeling because I had no one to run to with my problems so I was hurt in a lot of ways. Getting high and drunk was my way "out". Well one night I pushed my body to its limits and I should have died. Its hard to explain it all but the thing I know for sure is that God kept me here. From that day things were extremly difficult and it took a long time to get back on my feet. God saved me every time I should have died. God proved to me that I'm never alone even in my darkest hour.

God is there. I promise you that without a doubt in my heart. He's proven it to me time and time again. Sometimes people just push him away and walk away but the amazing thing is that he just stands there waiting with his arms wide open waiting for you to run back to him.

Things happen in life and it seems like a lot of bad things happen to good people but the thing to think about is our reward waiting for us in heaven.


I hope I was of some help...



Gods' Child,
keeperOFsecrets

 

[Healed_IHS]

It's not that God isn't here, he just can't "make" some give me a job, so prayers are useless.

 

[huk]

PS,

One day the devil & one of his disciples were sittng on a hill. The devil says "Watch this", he reaches down into prodigalseeker's life and creates all kinds of chaos, bad stuff, confusion, arrogance, and general nonsence.............The devils disciple says "Man, that is REALLY cool"......The devil says " Son you ain't seen nothin, you think that's cool??.........Watch who he blames!!!!

 

[BlessEwe]

PS,

One day the devil & one of his disciples were sittng on a hill. The devil says "Watch this", he reaches down into prodigalseeker's life and creates all kinds of chaos, bad stuff, confusion, arrogance, and general nonsence.............The devils disciple says "Man, that is REALLY cool"......The devil says " Son you ain't seen nothin, you think that's cool??.........Watch who he blames!!!!

Have to agree with this one. One year in sobriety is a very short time really. Many of our behaviors are still there. Life sucks "lets get loaded"
Learning to live life on lifes terms is a hard one to do, but it is nessarry to continue on sober. In all things be Thankful, for I feel there is a reason for everything. So you lost your job, this door is closed. Perhaps there is a better one right around the corner. Give it time and prayer and you will see the plan, just keep on keeping on.

 

[MrFreshdew]

It's not that God isn't here, he just can't "make" some give me a job, so prayers are useless.

heres a ponder 4 ya -Job 13:15a though He slay me,yet i will trust in Him

so no matter watt goes on - trust God and trust Him that He will provide like He says He will -look up verses in His word & see how good and pleasing our God is -dig deeper as 4 like hidden treasure. GodblessU

 

[janny108]

I have been sober for over a year, and thought things were going well... I had a job that I enjoyed and thought it was the right to register for school.

Lost that job, started school, now can't get a job due to being in school (!).

Ran out of money and been selling plasma for the little cash it gives. Second month Dad had to bail me out for rent money.

I have been attending church pretty regularly over the past year, and a consistent prayer life also. I don't think that everything should be perfect because of that, but have stopped praying. I used to pray daily, thanking God for my blessings and begging to have a door opened so I could get a job and not worry about being homeless (spent several years "on the street").... no luck.

So the conclusions that I came to are
A. There is no God (I DON'T believe this, but a possibility)
B. God cares but is powerless to do anything about (why bother worshiping a helpless God, I am helpless enough by myself)
C. God DOESN'T care, and is in fact getting his "jollies" from my predicament.

Sure, the bible says struggles build perseverance, but what good is that when your life keeps heading downhill? Perseverance should be a factor in your life moving forward.

This has me all torn up as I was doing well in my faith walk, but now....

Any input is appreciated. Thanks.

I can relate to this, I started school last semester and this semester I'm taking 2 classes. I had a job for 8 hrs I had to give up because I did not have time to go out of town just so I could make a measly amount that was not worth keeping. Yeah it would be nice to have extra money, but also, my menstrual cycle is very irregular and I fatigue easier. I'm going to the doc so he can reevaluate my med. I try not to focus on what we can't do right now, it gets weary. All I can tell myself is God is in control and I won't be going to school forever.

I've done the plasma thing too years ago. And I know what that can be like. It's like what am I doing here?

Why did you lose your job? How many hrs can you realistically work? Have you checked with the campus for jobs? What are you taking in school and how many credits do you have now? I'm taking 6 credits and find that is plenty, plus I'm an older student. When I was in school 30 years ago, I had 19 credits!

Jan

 

[janny108]

If you chose to attend school how were you planning to support yourself? Did you check with your job about their attitude towards to going to school before you enrolled?

John
NZ

I'm thinking he/she could qualify for financial aid of some kind.
Jan

 

[janny108]

It's not that God isn't here, he just can't "make" some give me a job, so prayers are useless.

But we need to remember that God is Creator, He can make something come out of nothing, not just the created world we live in, but He can make anything happen. My husband has been trying for a long time to get a better job; it's frustrating because jobs become available, then minds are changed because the postings sometimes get withdrawn, for no apparent reason, or they have a DUH moment. Meaning they think we don't have the money to pay for this job!!
Jan

 

[Healed_IHS]

Watch who he blames!!!!
There's a difference between "blaming" and accepting that sometimes God is either going to do something or isn't... me "whining" about it to Him isn't going to change God's mind

 

[Healed_IHS]

I am taking 14 credit hours, in addition to finding a full time job. I don't have any credits now, so I am not slacking. There are 168 hours in a week, and I only need 30-35 for sleep. 40 for work = 80+ school and other.

 

[Anti Existance]

The real answer is, you are God.

What i mean to say by that is that, you have your own life in your own hands. There is no magical light from above thats going to make your problems go away.

Don't get me wrong, before i also thought

'God, is there to solve all my problems' = wrong thought.

You are here on earth to have a hard time, you have volentarily chosen to do so, because it makes your spirit more stronger.

The right thought is this.

God can guide you, but winning the war called life is up to you.