last night at my homegroup
i have felt recently that god has left me completely and iv just wanted to die more and more each day but last night i had a revelation that god is always there and loves me and thinks im amaazing so wat else matters! that sounds silly but it was my first step to regaining strengh and my touch with god so yaaaaaay! i also got my first word and prophetic picture from god last night in months soo im realy happy
PRAAAAAAIIIIISSSSEEEE GOD!!!
Nice,
Got my Prophetic word back in January. Starting to come true.
Sister I want you to realize that your soul has more control over your mind that you realize. I want you to practice 2 things for me.
First a lesson on Spirit and sinful nature.
Galations 5:16-26 click to read
16 So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves.
18 But when you are directed by the Spirit, you are not under obligation to the law of Moses.
22 But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, and self-control. There is no law against these things!
25 Since we are living by the Spirit, let us follow the Spirit’s leading in every part of our lives
I always loved Paul, guy was a great sinner before Jesus took the scales off his eyes. I can better relate to him because he had to conquor his own sins just like we do.
He described the Spirit, positive force found within us. When I first studied this, I was seeking control over myself. I closed my eyes, and I tried to locate this spirit. Well to my amazement I found it. I was like a whisper compared to the screams of my sinful nature. Told me that life isn't that bad and gave me many ideas of what I SHOULD be doing.
Later I learned that sinful nature using my emotions to make me think of death and crush my self esteem. Opposite of it was logic and reason thinking. So I gave that part of my mind to the spirit. Literally was a battle between them.
17 The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions.
Later I learned to use my spirit as a forman or a manager. I let it tell me what I could be doing and I did it. Busy hands are not sinning hands.
Sinful nature, this concept made lot sense to me. During my highschool suicidal depression. I remember vividly how my own mind turned against me. Telling me how worthless and useless I was. I liked this with another peice of scripture that made sense to me. Accually it is what I believe is true intention of the sinful nature.
Luke 8:26-39 click here to read
30 Jesus demanded, “What is your name?”
“Legion,” he replied, for he was filled with many demons. 31 The demons kept begging Jesus not to send them into the bottomless pit.[c]
32 There happened to be a large herd of pigs feeding on the hillside nearby, and the demons begged him to let them enter into the pigs. So Jesus gave them permission. 33 Then the demons came out of the man and entered the pigs, and the entire herd plunged down the steep hillside into the lake and drowned.
To get me to drown. Sounds familar doesn't it?
"iv just wanted to die more and more each day"
Sinful nature is a part of everyone. It is the negitive force within us. We can not destroy or kill it, but we can null it. Fear, despair, unneeded guilt, worry, sorrow, or any negitive emotion or additude are all tools of the sinful nature. I found my greatest enemy all my life has been myself. Learn to take these tools away from the sinful nature and to use the spirit to help guide you.
Lastly, as you grow stronger in the soul and spirit. You will learn how much power soul has over the body. To believe is the tool of change. Understanding and knowledge are the placement and applying of a patch. Believing is what makes the patch perminate.
I want you to do this, think positive or self affirmate. "I will learn this subject." "I am a great person and loved by God." "I want to do this job best I can.". Depending on your will power, this will leave positive imprint and help give you leverage to make it true. Only works if you believe it.
I think great God spoke to you, but war is far from over. I want to arm you with understanding and knowledge.
God bless
P.S. We are all human. We need to express our pent up emotions. If you have lot stirring up your heart, talk to true friend or someone you trust. Or vent here if you like. Don't suppress it because it will build up and come back to with a vengence. Best to express your 'blues' just like King David did in the Psalms. God bottles up all your tears and hears your pain.
