Walking The Path With Jesus

I used to attend church I would always feel uplifted during services .Then in 2010 a shift happened I no longer felt that same feeling any longer it was now gone like the Holy Spirit had left . So I decided to look else where to find that spirit again . I started going back to the beginning reading Jesus words and really internalizing his teachings doing all the things he said . I looked for the kingdom that he said was inside me. So I gave up all the things that kept me away from that . I just kept reading " So the prince of this world comes and has nothing in you " So I gave a lot of stuff up beer , coffee wasn't that hard , junk food that took a lot longer .And I starting doing that I felt better no longer the highs and lows of sugar. Then I internalized what Jesus meant when he said the beam in our eye and being like little children .It must be my psychology so I started looking at that how my beliefs that would make me angry with people or situations and that has taken years to undo . I'm still working on not being so judgmental, critical .I read a lot of books on the subject found some helpful videos on youtube. I do lots of prayers everyday 1 hour in the mornings and 2 hours at night I found on the Internet they make me feel better and protected from negative thoughts that always come in to my mind since I started doing this .I also ask Jesus for help to guide me before I go to bed and I always get direction when I need it . I always remember as Jesus taught to multiple my talents and slowly my life has turned around I don't need the things I thought were important before . Seems like always when I make a breakthrough into some new understanding on Jesus teachings there is always a push back from the prince of this world , but I just keep taking one more step up . And when life gets too hard I take what ever it is anger, hatred, lust and give to Jesus to dissolve it and it always works.I still have a long ways to go I always see something that I need to give up some attachment pride is one thats been hard to let go of . I have found that joy again walking the path Jesus taught and I try and share it with others not try convert or preach just give them a cup of cold water in his name . Thats my life with my Lord ,Savior, Teacher ... long hours , little pay , but the retirement benefits are out of this world !