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This is part of my original blog prior to changes to CF2.
Written: 10th November 2007
After bout of sickness, dealing with stress regarding the house and other personal issues arising at the same time; I noticed that I don’t feel like doing anything. I don’t feel like praying, singing or worshipping. I feel physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually tired and drained. I feel as if the adversary that roars like a lion seeking to devour has his hand in my life, coming against me trying to weaken my walk with God. All of this is reflecting in my life with family and friends. Recently, I have been impatience and cranky. Dreams are very fuzzy and not clear.
Last night’s dream was very dark. I dreamt I running on the beach in the night. I saw old sailing boat with lights and I took it out to sea in the black darkness with only the moon shining to show me what I was sailing on. I saw gravestones, coffins, and skulls and bones emblems floating on the water. I hit land to a village that appeared to be decorated for Christmas. I saw a crowd surrounding a church and I heard Christmas song “What Child is this?” and I ran crying “Jesus, Jesus” as if I was looking for him and he would appear. What I saw was children acting out the Christmas Nativity scene. I looked at the children and their faces started to distort and become grotesque. I felt I was in an alternative universe. Where good was evil and evil was good. My soul was in despair.
This is how I feel in life today with what is happening with our churches. Some wolves crept in without us noticing. We have been so busy with our lives; we missed who has been coming in and trying to influence it. Didn’t Paul speak about this in his epistles? Truth is being distorted and those who try to speak are being stifled. A few months ago, I had a few dreams; where I heard a voice in the dream say to me that a holocaust was coming (not sure on whom, however). I am sure it is in regards to the fifth seal spoken in Revelation prediction of persecutions towards Christians who hold fast to the truth.
The previous dreams were so surreal I felt like I was in a fairy tale. This dream was so vivid, black, gray and white with a pale green. The sky was gray; the sand underneath my feet was pure white. I looked up to see a white Arabian horse. He came out of nowhere pulling a cart. When I looked up I saw a man, whose face I couldn’t see riding the cart. I was suddenly on that cart as a bystander looking to where he was going. The cart stopped and I saw a huge boulder rock on the side of me, and the dark storm clouds looming ahead. It looked pure wicked the clouds and the winds. Then I saw a huge tsunami coming at me. The sea was this ghastly sick green with white cap foam coming towards me. But before I went to run the wave knocked me. I couldn’t breath and I heard a voice say to me “not to fight it and let it overcome me" and I took in the water through my nose to find out I was breathing in fresh air. The dream ended. The first thought was the white horse from the book of revelation but it could be coincidence.
The second dream was I was standing in the church waiting for the bridegroom. I was wearing a white wedding dress with a veil. I was waiting for the bridegroom and was thinking he was standing me up at the church. I started to walk down a quiet suburban street towards a park. I was looking for something but not sure what it was. I saw a bazaar who was selling fabrics and decided to purchase a peach towel. Not sure why to be honest. Then I ran into a man, who said he was the bridegroom but I was being stubborn . I said I was going to live my life and forget the marriage but he was continually trying to woo me. He was telling me how much he loves me and wants to marry me. I was starting to feel my heart melt inside. This is not the first dream that I am dressed in a wedding dress. Have I walked away from Jesus and is he trying to woo me back again? I don’t know. All I know am I feeling spiritually drained at the moment and I think I need to rest. This cold autumnal weather has me feeling under the weather.
This is part of my original blog prior to changes to CF2.
Written: 10th November 2007
After bout of sickness, dealing with stress regarding the house and other personal issues arising at the same time; I noticed that I don’t feel like doing anything. I don’t feel like praying, singing or worshipping. I feel physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually tired and drained. I feel as if the adversary that roars like a lion seeking to devour has his hand in my life, coming against me trying to weaken my walk with God. All of this is reflecting in my life with family and friends. Recently, I have been impatience and cranky. Dreams are very fuzzy and not clear.
Last night’s dream was very dark. I dreamt I running on the beach in the night. I saw old sailing boat with lights and I took it out to sea in the black darkness with only the moon shining to show me what I was sailing on. I saw gravestones, coffins, and skulls and bones emblems floating on the water. I hit land to a village that appeared to be decorated for Christmas. I saw a crowd surrounding a church and I heard Christmas song “What Child is this?” and I ran crying “Jesus, Jesus” as if I was looking for him and he would appear. What I saw was children acting out the Christmas Nativity scene. I looked at the children and their faces started to distort and become grotesque. I felt I was in an alternative universe. Where good was evil and evil was good. My soul was in despair.
This is how I feel in life today with what is happening with our churches. Some wolves crept in without us noticing. We have been so busy with our lives; we missed who has been coming in and trying to influence it. Didn’t Paul speak about this in his epistles? Truth is being distorted and those who try to speak are being stifled. A few months ago, I had a few dreams; where I heard a voice in the dream say to me that a holocaust was coming (not sure on whom, however). I am sure it is in regards to the fifth seal spoken in Revelation prediction of persecutions towards Christians who hold fast to the truth.
The previous dreams were so surreal I felt like I was in a fairy tale. This dream was so vivid, black, gray and white with a pale green. The sky was gray; the sand underneath my feet was pure white. I looked up to see a white Arabian horse. He came out of nowhere pulling a cart. When I looked up I saw a man, whose face I couldn’t see riding the cart. I was suddenly on that cart as a bystander looking to where he was going. The cart stopped and I saw a huge boulder rock on the side of me, and the dark storm clouds looming ahead. It looked pure wicked the clouds and the winds. Then I saw a huge tsunami coming at me. The sea was this ghastly sick green with white cap foam coming towards me. But before I went to run the wave knocked me. I couldn’t breath and I heard a voice say to me “not to fight it and let it overcome me" and I took in the water through my nose to find out I was breathing in fresh air. The dream ended. The first thought was the white horse from the book of revelation but it could be coincidence.
The second dream was I was standing in the church waiting for the bridegroom. I was wearing a white wedding dress with a veil. I was waiting for the bridegroom and was thinking he was standing me up at the church. I started to walk down a quiet suburban street towards a park. I was looking for something but not sure what it was. I saw a bazaar who was selling fabrics and decided to purchase a peach towel. Not sure why to be honest. Then I ran into a man, who said he was the bridegroom but I was being stubborn . I said I was going to live my life and forget the marriage but he was continually trying to woo me. He was telling me how much he loves me and wants to marry me. I was starting to feel my heart melt inside. This is not the first dream that I am dressed in a wedding dress. Have I walked away from Jesus and is he trying to woo me back again? I don’t know. All I know am I feeling spiritually drained at the moment and I think I need to rest. This cold autumnal weather has me feeling under the weather.
