Useless

I was thinking today about the useless things we do as human beings. We go to school to get educated so we can get a good job with good pay. But I think that this is useless in some aspects with regard to our motive. I think that there is nothing wrong with wanting a good-paying job, but when we let the need or want for the money that job offers control our life and relationships, there is a problem. I liked the idea of having a good job, but when I truly thought about my motive behind my desire, I realized that I only wanted the money. Now, I want to be a teacher so I can maybe intervene in a child's life and help them get over pain. I feel strongly that this is my calling and that if I continue examining the motive behind my desire, I can't go wrong. I also thought about the useless fights people have. My brother and I fight about the pettiest things on the planet. I once got mad at him for not putting the toilet paper roll back on the holder. I was so furious after a couple minutes because he kept saying stuff like "You're not the boss of me, I hated you anyways, you are so controlling, you need to get off my butt" etc. I think back to that time and realize that if I had just decided to keep my mouth shut he wouldn't have said the things he said to me and I wouldn't feel the way I was feeling in the moment. I am NOT condoning him talking to me that way, but I realize that I had a part in it as well. I try to apologize to him, but he never accepts, (which he will have to go before God and explain) but I wouldn't need to apologize if I had just kept to myself. It's hard for me to keep myself from correcting my brother because I love him despite what he does, but too much to keep him acting that way. It's complicated. But anyways, useless stuff causes problems, and the bible warns against people who make trouble. Romans 16:17-18 says to keep away from people who cause problems, "And now I make one more appeal, my dear brothers and sisters. Watch out for people who cause divisions and upset people’s faith by teaching things contrary to what you have been taught. Stay away from them. Such people are not serving Christ our Lord; they are serving their own personal interests. By smooth talk and glowing words they deceive innocent people." I am guilty of serving myself, and I have been guilty of causing problems. These are both things that I plan to change with God's help. Oh and I'm sorry I haven't been blogging, I have been dealing with a lot of stuff lately.