Escape The Fate: The Day I Left The Womb

Well, I just got really sad over a very good sounding song. The song is called The Day I Left The Womb. Basically in this song, the man singing talks about the day he was born his mom left him and his dad raised him and his brother(s). It also talks about how his brother is on hard drugs. This song really reminds me of my family. My brother isn't on drugs, but he is always angry which is sometimes a drug in and of itself, my mom didn't leave, but she's always focused on something other than her kids, and my dad didn't raise us, but in the song it says, "Your cuts and callused hands, you had kids to feed." my dad has kids to feed, and he failed for a while. It makes me sad because it also reminds me of my mindset sometimes. "Please don't worry, I am doing fine, you're much to busy to even find the time, so use your chemicals and take this to your grave, the boys you left are men you didn't raise." I feel sometimes that nobody pays any mind to me at all. So I fend for myself and say I'm doing fine. I also think that for my dad, he can take this thought to his grave: when you left us three times and said that you were done with me, it hurt me, it left me feeling unwanted, unloved, and alone. I'm a hurt human being, and I just realized that I am still dealing with feelings after listening to this song. I am at school and I started to cry while writing this and when I watched the video. It hurts; life hurts. Sometimes I wonder if God is even here for me. This is one of those moments. I had a bad morning, and then this song played and I can't deal with it. I don't see why God would let this happen. I want to praise Him, but it's hard to do that when you don't see somebody and everything is dark. Things are really hard right now, please pray for me. If you want to watch the video here is the link: