So i did some reading. Philippians 4:8.. paraphrased into .. whatever things are true, ....,meditate on these things.
Already my brain starts telling me well, why bother, you dont have a church, or have a clue where to go. so why re-start yet because you know from past experience that without a church you cant maintain at the start.
I used a good book by elizabeth george last night to help me with guiding my reading. it helps with someone else kinda walking you thru it.
i get so sidetracked trying to pray by myself. but i have to remember that all that stuff in my head about God not wanting me back is not real therefore i should not meditate on it!
arg, why do i do this to myself??? lol. i make it so difficult.
night
pj
Already my brain starts telling me well, why bother, you dont have a church, or have a clue where to go. so why re-start yet because you know from past experience that without a church you cant maintain at the start.
I used a good book by elizabeth george last night to help me with guiding my reading. it helps with someone else kinda walking you thru it.
i get so sidetracked trying to pray by myself. but i have to remember that all that stuff in my head about God not wanting me back is not real therefore i should not meditate on it!
arg, why do i do this to myself??? lol. i make it so difficult.
night
pj
