Finally met up with r.... i think i have already forgiven her coz can buy her gifts from my vacation... but again, last sunday, she got to rub salt into the scar that just have been healed... she sms me whether i still need a lift??? said that she is giving someone lift and passing by... of coz, i said no... i think she is very surprised... she tot that i took advantage of her, got close to her coz of the "free" rides... cant she feel my friendship love towards her? she didnt let me off and start checking whether i am still attending church? I know my heart... If i am no longer comfortable with that person, even if I cant afford, I dont think I will take free ride from her. I rather take train (which takes longer) with another person who is more genuine, and can share with me sincerely... I am disappointed that r think she is being taken advantage of... she is narrow mind, petty person... I always believe being friend is a "ministry" it doesnt matter who gives more, its just like a relationship, where you cant measure... Moreover, I have given so so much... she knows, and even said that I am one of her friend that showed her "too" much concern and care... that's love right? and God always says love yr neighbour as yrself... told her friend that i am being sticky and nosey... i think coz i care... anyway, lots of misunderstanding which i dont care to explain... i move on and forward... but i am sad that i have to give up this friend coz i always thank God for giving her as a friend but i think God wants to show me that He is the only person i can depend on... However, i will continue to pray and bless r... she is still my friend in heart, though i have tried to maintain minimal contact with her...maybe be her Secret Angel
