we all want the same thing but so few seem to find it. God, life is not supposed to be this way... why do most of us lack the depths of true love? why do I want so much to love and to be loved and so many of us are the same way but for some reason things never seem to work out how they should...
there is a language spoken that is the truth but it must forever attempt to catch up to where we are at.
this reality is forever trying to catch up to what I am with God and sometimes I find myself lost in what I was, but being this part of me, a creature, I know I must die... but I am gifted by God the darkness and I quickly give up for I stop having the light of His face and I go into the despairs of the darkness of myself. the Lord wishes me to be free even from Himself/Herself, because S/He loves me so much. I know He wants me to stand firm in actual and true being, in a manner as such... that I learn to properly stand on my own two feet. because She wants me to walk along side Him and not only be carried around by Him. and She knows what it is that i truly desire, far more than I myself can feel it or know it. but part of the souls joy is that i shall forever expand for my beloved, being forever reunited to the only one I exist for. forever we shall rejoice, that is why this moment is. that is why everything is, all out of a true and Fathomless Love. but as a creature with a limited capacity I find sometimes that things do not appear as they ought. I must stand more firm and in my own loyalty to that which I seek, I must stop giving in to lesser things that I really don't even want... I must stand in a real love even when I myself experience no love.... and I must not try too hard least i find myself laboring by the constructed laws of the revealings of His truth and eat the bread rather than listen to the lips of God. be it not so that i grow stagnant and find myself hindering God from giving more unto me as She so desires...
there is a language spoken that is the truth but it must forever attempt to catch up to where we are at.
this reality is forever trying to catch up to what I am with God and sometimes I find myself lost in what I was, but being this part of me, a creature, I know I must die... but I am gifted by God the darkness and I quickly give up for I stop having the light of His face and I go into the despairs of the darkness of myself. the Lord wishes me to be free even from Himself/Herself, because S/He loves me so much. I know He wants me to stand firm in actual and true being, in a manner as such... that I learn to properly stand on my own two feet. because She wants me to walk along side Him and not only be carried around by Him. and She knows what it is that i truly desire, far more than I myself can feel it or know it. but part of the souls joy is that i shall forever expand for my beloved, being forever reunited to the only one I exist for. forever we shall rejoice, that is why this moment is. that is why everything is, all out of a true and Fathomless Love. but as a creature with a limited capacity I find sometimes that things do not appear as they ought. I must stand more firm and in my own loyalty to that which I seek, I must stop giving in to lesser things that I really don't even want... I must stand in a real love even when I myself experience no love.... and I must not try too hard least i find myself laboring by the constructed laws of the revealings of His truth and eat the bread rather than listen to the lips of God. be it not so that i grow stagnant and find myself hindering God from giving more unto me as She so desires...
