I'm no longer a teenager, but an adult as of the 7th of November.
I feel called to join the Army, but at the same time, I don't want to. I wouldn't be able to go through with it, and to go off to any wars and kill people who are doing what they're told to do by their leader, just as we are doing as well. That didn't make sense.
I'm participating somewhat in NaNoWriMo, and writing about three different types of people:
-An anorexic who is looking for a way out of her own created prison
-A drug addict who is just looking for an angel to save him
and a
-Christian who is looking for the God who'll accept him for his sexuality.
I have noticed, in all of my works, I will have at least two gay characters: One atheist and one a Christian and both with one thing in common:
General hatred, for either sexuality or belief.
What I really wanna go is help close the gaps between homosexuality and Christianity. In fact, on my tumblr (chatoticcyanide.tumblr.com/), I've been following pro-LGBTQ Christian blogs, and they post a lot of information about gay rights, showing both sides of the argument, and reaching out to the LGBTQ community in a Christ-like way (accepting, supporting, etc).
As a biromantic asexual, I find this really uplifting, especially to see straight Christians posting to the blog, saying that they are Christian but they support really gives me hope, really helps me remember that God loves me for me.
I remember a few years ago, while struggling to accept myself (at first, I thought I was bisexual) and trying to accept God as well, I really hated who I was. I thought God would hate me because I liked both guys and girls, and because I was told the Bible is against gays.
Well, long story short: I learned that that wasn't true. What God...would hate someone for how they're born?
As my current favorite song goes: "What God would damn a heart?" Because, God is a loving God, and how I see God may not how another sees Him but it is widely accepted that God is a loving, fearful God.
Which leads me to another thing: I chose to walk away from the Lutheran denomination after I re-found God, and declare myself non-denominational, for personal reasons. I believe in the Catholic saints, but I don't believe I have to pray to them in order to speak with God. Amongst other things.
I've also been in a writing mood lately, but I can't figure out how to word my story for NaNoWriMo. It's kind of frustrating.
Also, meaning behind my SN:
Chaotic-My life was this for quite a few years, and so is my mind. It's always in a chaos, jumping from one thing to the next and even getting to a point of depression or maybe even to a high. It's very dark, and very sad.
Firefly-They bring light to the darkness, and they light up the night and bring a small ounce of hope. Plus, I like fireflies.
Get it?
Time go to write x_X
I feel called to join the Army, but at the same time, I don't want to. I wouldn't be able to go through with it, and to go off to any wars and kill people who are doing what they're told to do by their leader, just as we are doing as well. That didn't make sense.
I'm participating somewhat in NaNoWriMo, and writing about three different types of people:
-An anorexic who is looking for a way out of her own created prison
-A drug addict who is just looking for an angel to save him
and a
-Christian who is looking for the God who'll accept him for his sexuality.
I have noticed, in all of my works, I will have at least two gay characters: One atheist and one a Christian and both with one thing in common:
General hatred, for either sexuality or belief.
What I really wanna go is help close the gaps between homosexuality and Christianity. In fact, on my tumblr (chatoticcyanide.tumblr.com/), I've been following pro-LGBTQ Christian blogs, and they post a lot of information about gay rights, showing both sides of the argument, and reaching out to the LGBTQ community in a Christ-like way (accepting, supporting, etc).
As a biromantic asexual, I find this really uplifting, especially to see straight Christians posting to the blog, saying that they are Christian but they support really gives me hope, really helps me remember that God loves me for me.
I remember a few years ago, while struggling to accept myself (at first, I thought I was bisexual) and trying to accept God as well, I really hated who I was. I thought God would hate me because I liked both guys and girls, and because I was told the Bible is against gays.
Well, long story short: I learned that that wasn't true. What God...would hate someone for how they're born?
As my current favorite song goes: "What God would damn a heart?" Because, God is a loving God, and how I see God may not how another sees Him but it is widely accepted that God is a loving, fearful God.
Which leads me to another thing: I chose to walk away from the Lutheran denomination after I re-found God, and declare myself non-denominational, for personal reasons. I believe in the Catholic saints, but I don't believe I have to pray to them in order to speak with God. Amongst other things.
I've also been in a writing mood lately, but I can't figure out how to word my story for NaNoWriMo. It's kind of frustrating.
Also, meaning behind my SN:
Chaotic-My life was this for quite a few years, and so is my mind. It's always in a chaos, jumping from one thing to the next and even getting to a point of depression or maybe even to a high. It's very dark, and very sad.
Firefly-They bring light to the darkness, and they light up the night and bring a small ounce of hope. Plus, I like fireflies.
Get it?
Time go to write x_X
