In the past, used read the bible a lot, when my brain wouldn't let me read any more I'd play an MP3 version of it to keep feeding it into my inner person. Isn't the word of the Lord like a fire? Like a hammer that smashes the rock to pieces? I'd keep praying. Eventually, the scriptures imprinted themselves on the consciousness of my body. At first it was like hell, because the sinful nature hating all things related to God tried to electrocute me using my own body signals. Thankfully, some intervention came (Hopefully divine, but no way of knowing now) and helped me pass through that situation. Honestly, a part of me still thinks I'm really dead and all of this is a dream, but I've accepted things on an "it is what it is" basis.
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I understand how the scripture can really stir up mental illnesses, especially conditions that were not there previously. I was lead to one passage in the scripture that gave me a hint as to why, this passage was about the law magnifying sin. Over time, I have had to categorize arguments into types and classes, if it is of the "law" class, it cannot be used as a wall against sin, as that's like trapping myself in.
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It's funny when I started trusting God the way the bible instructed, I started getting some real progress.
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As I trusted God, I slowly grew and matured and learned new ways of removing the darkness of time memorial and the new darkness that is generated in the hearts of people and me.
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Where I was where I was trusting the scriptures to be a supernatural power to fix my problems, I can't go back that way, it would be suicide. Since then I've dealt with dark spiritual things that are unbelievable, did you know in the chasms between denominations and traditions that there are demons that swallow entire congregations? The old way of doing things was so self destructive and flimsy at the same time. From a personal perspective, I had seen the difference between the old and new testament.
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So around now, it's like the sin essence that corrupts creation is tangible to me, and in confessing the disowned sins as my own, the corruption disappears. I invite the Holy Spirit to take the place of the sin, and in this I find my own healing.
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The learning process continues, scripture is part of as something God reminds me of as stuff happens, and teaches me stuff that can't be learned by reading hands on.
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The scriptures altered my mind, and God continues to alter my mind so I can be more like Him.
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I understand how the scripture can really stir up mental illnesses, especially conditions that were not there previously. I was lead to one passage in the scripture that gave me a hint as to why, this passage was about the law magnifying sin. Over time, I have had to categorize arguments into types and classes, if it is of the "law" class, it cannot be used as a wall against sin, as that's like trapping myself in.
.
It's funny when I started trusting God the way the bible instructed, I started getting some real progress.
.
As I trusted God, I slowly grew and matured and learned new ways of removing the darkness of time memorial and the new darkness that is generated in the hearts of people and me.
.
Where I was where I was trusting the scriptures to be a supernatural power to fix my problems, I can't go back that way, it would be suicide. Since then I've dealt with dark spiritual things that are unbelievable, did you know in the chasms between denominations and traditions that there are demons that swallow entire congregations? The old way of doing things was so self destructive and flimsy at the same time. From a personal perspective, I had seen the difference between the old and new testament.
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So around now, it's like the sin essence that corrupts creation is tangible to me, and in confessing the disowned sins as my own, the corruption disappears. I invite the Holy Spirit to take the place of the sin, and in this I find my own healing.
.
The learning process continues, scripture is part of as something God reminds me of as stuff happens, and teaches me stuff that can't be learned by reading hands on.
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The scriptures altered my mind, and God continues to alter my mind so I can be more like Him.
