Lonely & Disappointed

I had a disappointed week... i waited in anticipation to meet r, thought we could reconcile and be good friends again.. i even visualized the scenes, but unfortunately God didnt allow that to happen, he put hiccups into our paths... I was a bit apprehensive when r didnt confirm..then i sms r. she said she is busy, can only confirm 1 day before... then she said not feeling well, plan to take mc... then said maybe can meet me for a short while during the day... but cant confirm. since i was on leave, i tried but yet told me she cant... but next day she is out for the whole day??? its not only my wasted leave, but i m sad...
my sat is alone again, though i try to fix something, but it seemd everyone out there has got something on during this festive season.... i began to think i should not just stick to christain circle... i m very very disappointed with them!!! they will only find me as a back-up plan... r, m the same ...
so my next year resolution is to drop them as friend, to go back to my previous church... to maybe do charity work, not necessary christain... i m tired.... and wishing for a miracle