IM Conversation re: Destiny, part 2

Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:31 AM):
can one really truly live only by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:32 AM):
I believe it is possible.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:32 AM):
it wants to
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:32 AM):
it wants to get up and walk away with just the shirt on its back
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:32 AM):
it doesn't know where to though
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:32 AM):
but it wants to be out there, salt and light
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:32 AM):
and if God wishes to feed it, He shall
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:33 AM):
and if God wishes it to starve, it shall.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:33 AM):
it wants this so bad it can taste it
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:33 AM):
but it bes afraid of hurting people who need it
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:33 AM):
it bes afraid of hurting its fiance by leaving
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:33 AM):
yes
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:33 AM):
hurting its children by becoming inaccessible and having no means they can call upon if they gets in dire straits
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:34 AM):
and it fears its stupid stupid self
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:34 AM):
all full of fragmented consciousness and unstable mind and fickle heart
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:34 AM):
how can it go forth clinging only to Him when IT must cling and IT cannot trust itself to do even that
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:35 AM):
You ask as if I have an answer. You know I don't. But, hear this...
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:35 AM):
for TEN YEARS now it has been in torment of this
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:35 AM):
that it can remember anyway
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:35 AM):
TEN years since it first heard the call to go to the desert
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:35 AM):
and all it can do bes like "what desert?? which one?? where??"
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:36 AM):
"give me a SIGN!!"
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:36 AM):

Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:36 AM):
sorry, listening.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:36 AM):
please go ahead
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:36 AM):
I was just going to say that of all people---you are most capable of following His voice and journeying on His missions.
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:37 AM):
I know your heart and I know it well.
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:37 AM):
I don't know where He is sending you, but I do know that He has a great plan for you.
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:37 AM):
It has been very important for me to be with you all this time.
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:37 AM):
I have learned so much from you.
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:38 AM):
And perhaps, just perhaps you are already in this vast desert (called cyberspace)
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:38 AM):
Already preaching to the people and giving salt and light where there is none.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:38 AM):
more
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:38 AM):
i want more
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:39 AM):
i want to lay my hands upon the sick and have them be healed
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:39 AM):
i want to lay my hands upon those coming to Him and have them receive His Holy Spirit
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:40 AM):
i want to get up from this bed of paralysis and walk, with my chains falling behind me broken, and all memory of myself left behind with them
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
i keep thinking, abraham didn't know where he bes going either when he left
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
nor did moses
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
but it bes not great like them
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
it sees not clear like them
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
it has not their faith
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:41 AM):
bes wanting it enough??
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:42 AM):
bes weeping for it enough??
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:42 AM):
If you found that you were Sarah, or Aaron, would it be enough for you?
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:42 AM):
Or a type of Sarah or a type of Aaron.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:42 AM):
when you feel like your heart will break and explode, bes that enough
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:42 AM):
don't understand your question
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:43 AM):
if you enquire whether this bes vanity, it does not believe so
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:43 AM):
Um.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:43 AM):
vanity would not cause such despair
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:43 AM):
vanity bes proud and haughty not laying in the dust weeping and begging
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:44 AM):
Would it be enough to simply walk at Jesus' side with no commission granted to you?
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:44 AM):
but if it bes vanity it would be only too glad to be rid of it and no more tormented
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:44 AM):
no commission??
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:44 AM):
No task, no action...
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:45 AM):
it cannot conceive of such a thing
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:45 AM):
but it desires Him
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:45 AM):
and to serve Him

Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:46 AM):
oh God
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:46 AM):
no please no
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:47 AM):
What?
** Friend of Moriah ** says (12:47 AM):
I'm really not conveying what I was thinking....not well at all.
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:47 AM):
no not you
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:47 AM):
them
Moriah Conquering Wind says (12:47 AM):
oh God please make them leave it ALONE