I am trying to stay away from the poor me thing, and that is why I post here because its the only place where I can vent safely.
I truely don't understand how someone can destroy a ten year relationship and still get everything. I just got a call from the pastor of the church that wanted Tonie's phone number and then told me that we wasn't meeting with him to get Tonie to get back with me, and I told him good because Tonie and I are done that I was tired of the jelousy from him, and the lack of him wanting to talk about things (which is why he cheated in the first place) and the poor pity me comments that he posts on his facebook wall and mine. So he tells me that there is going to be a lot of hurt and pain that has been built up for 10 years and that they are not going to go away over night so he was meeting with him to talk some more.
How nice, HE cheats on me and everyone is concerned about his hurts and pain, never mind he spent those 10 years abusing me (only once was it physicall contact). The pastor and his wife has never met with me or called to see how I was handling things .... then I get home and Rozzie wants to live with her dad so he came and got her over night. So guess he gets her too, and I just lose out on everything. I lost a marriage, I lost 10 years of a life that I built with NO HELP from him, I lost my house, my dog and Im losing my daughter too, but don't worry Im a strong women, or at least that is what everyone keeps telling me these days but guess what they really don't know is that Im crumbling. Im numb inside, my heart is no longer broken but shatered not into pieces but dust!
I truely don't understand how someone can destroy a ten year relationship and still get everything. I just got a call from the pastor of the church that wanted Tonie's phone number and then told me that we wasn't meeting with him to get Tonie to get back with me, and I told him good because Tonie and I are done that I was tired of the jelousy from him, and the lack of him wanting to talk about things (which is why he cheated in the first place) and the poor pity me comments that he posts on his facebook wall and mine. So he tells me that there is going to be a lot of hurt and pain that has been built up for 10 years and that they are not going to go away over night so he was meeting with him to talk some more.
How nice, HE cheats on me and everyone is concerned about his hurts and pain, never mind he spent those 10 years abusing me (only once was it physicall contact). The pastor and his wife has never met with me or called to see how I was handling things .... then I get home and Rozzie wants to live with her dad so he came and got her over night. So guess he gets her too, and I just lose out on everything. I lost a marriage, I lost 10 years of a life that I built with NO HELP from him, I lost my house, my dog and Im losing my daughter too, but don't worry Im a strong women, or at least that is what everyone keeps telling me these days but guess what they really don't know is that Im crumbling. Im numb inside, my heart is no longer broken but shatered not into pieces but dust!
