who among any of us is not selfish? you might be able to notice what happens to people who get rid of their fears, because often when we have no more fears we are free to be as evil as we can. that is why the political leaders and people with authority over others often fall into corruption... they have less fears holding them down. remember the 4 angels that were bond to the river Euphrates in the book of revelation? when they are let loose they cause destruction. so it is the same with the christian religion and what sin does to it. all of us will feel evils of various kinds in this life and when you feel cut off from God you literally might not have much strength left and so God lets you see what you are without him. and it is not nice and not good most of the time, though God wishes us to be completely free and to choose the good.
those who think they have a higher understanding and yet who can not tolerate those babes who have not yet learned what they have will only become wise devils. for there are dumb demons and there are smart ones. Jesus said that we are either for him or against him and so we should be fully with him rather than allows ourselves to be rent and torn by evil spirits who are insane to the reasoning of God. they might be able to help us understand more clearly some thing. what do i mean by that? an example is what I have been going through. I feel intense anger sometimes. I can feel all evils fueling it. it has justifications for what it feels like it does and it does not understand why it should love rather than feel the way that it does. but this part of me gets too caught up in self love. and not the good kind of self love, which it would be if it was united to the other kinds of loves. but self love alone, which only loves itself to a high level and wishes to protect and defend itself and for others to not control or go against it, this form of self love will cause problems because it is in a state of separation from the rest of everyone else who are just like you are. they are souls with feelings and ideas and hopes and dreams and faith and all that comes with being what you yourself are. I must not exalt myself over another. I must not also let others trample me, but it does not mean I have to be a prideful devil about it. patience and other heavenly virtues are the way. the ways of a fool do not bring forth the kingdom of God which is Gods Love.
so maybe all the good guys in our religion of Christianity are right. maybe for the most part anger is useless. sometimes I feel that my evils get triggered off by others evils. even if that is the case, I should remember that it is not pleasing to God to mistreat his people, which include all humans for God is the God of all. maybe part of me hates others at times because I hate myself. but that is only self loves own corrupted end. for being cut off from the loves of all other things my own self love grows cold. but as God says - do not render evil for evil. instead give good to evil that the evils may see that the hot coals are good and they will be ashamed and repent and run away from the dead and dry ways of demonic perceptions about others and about self.
it is a frightening thing to be evil standing up against God who is good. the amount of shame that sin is is unbearable and so God blinds all of we sinners to it least we die by knowing how evil and wrong we are when we are devils. God does not want to force us to be good and so we must freely pick God over being a devil. what hurts the most is not having enough love for God to reject the evils screaming inside of you and the pride thinking it should do what it does. I think this is one reason why humility can be such a useful virtue some times in our lives. i hope each of you will be such a blessing to the Lord that you never fall into the errors that i can find myself falling into. the Lord is good and we shall be good with him for he will not give up on any of us.
those who think they have a higher understanding and yet who can not tolerate those babes who have not yet learned what they have will only become wise devils. for there are dumb demons and there are smart ones. Jesus said that we are either for him or against him and so we should be fully with him rather than allows ourselves to be rent and torn by evil spirits who are insane to the reasoning of God. they might be able to help us understand more clearly some thing. what do i mean by that? an example is what I have been going through. I feel intense anger sometimes. I can feel all evils fueling it. it has justifications for what it feels like it does and it does not understand why it should love rather than feel the way that it does. but this part of me gets too caught up in self love. and not the good kind of self love, which it would be if it was united to the other kinds of loves. but self love alone, which only loves itself to a high level and wishes to protect and defend itself and for others to not control or go against it, this form of self love will cause problems because it is in a state of separation from the rest of everyone else who are just like you are. they are souls with feelings and ideas and hopes and dreams and faith and all that comes with being what you yourself are. I must not exalt myself over another. I must not also let others trample me, but it does not mean I have to be a prideful devil about it. patience and other heavenly virtues are the way. the ways of a fool do not bring forth the kingdom of God which is Gods Love.
so maybe all the good guys in our religion of Christianity are right. maybe for the most part anger is useless. sometimes I feel that my evils get triggered off by others evils. even if that is the case, I should remember that it is not pleasing to God to mistreat his people, which include all humans for God is the God of all. maybe part of me hates others at times because I hate myself. but that is only self loves own corrupted end. for being cut off from the loves of all other things my own self love grows cold. but as God says - do not render evil for evil. instead give good to evil that the evils may see that the hot coals are good and they will be ashamed and repent and run away from the dead and dry ways of demonic perceptions about others and about self.
it is a frightening thing to be evil standing up against God who is good. the amount of shame that sin is is unbearable and so God blinds all of we sinners to it least we die by knowing how evil and wrong we are when we are devils. God does not want to force us to be good and so we must freely pick God over being a devil. what hurts the most is not having enough love for God to reject the evils screaming inside of you and the pride thinking it should do what it does. I think this is one reason why humility can be such a useful virtue some times in our lives. i hope each of you will be such a blessing to the Lord that you never fall into the errors that i can find myself falling into. the Lord is good and we shall be good with him for he will not give up on any of us.
