Hi!
I've been having an okay day so far today. I gave some change to a poor man and I bought a game for my PC. The good voice in my head says that "God sees the good in us." I hope he is right. I worry that the good voice is lying to me, but what he says is really nice. He says Jesus loves me and won't hurt me. I really have so many fears about God being out to get me. I feel so bad about my sins sometimes. Things could be worse though. Things could be a lot worse.
I worry about magical signs that I've been given. I found writings around my house telling me to go to hell and condemning me. The evil voice says really nasty things to me. I'm really afraid that he is going to be right. There are reasons why I worry that the good voice is lying to me. This is because he has turned evil before when I was really really upset and down about things. What he says is really nice though. He really does help me with my fears and worries.
I want to watch The Peanutbutter Falcon with my mom soon. I watched it in theaters but she hasn't watched it yet. It's a really good movie and I really identify with it because I have a mental illness. It's probably my favorite movie of the year. I really liked Knives Out too though. I also liked A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood.
Anyway, I'm trying to not believe I'm going to hell. The good voice says, "You have something that is worth more than all the riches in the world: salvation." I hope I am saved. People say it is a gift from God. I worry that I haven't been given salvation. There are many times that I feel too bad to be saved. My sins are really really bad. Not just little things, but big things. There are times that I feel like God forgive little things, but not big things.
I hope the good voice is not lying. I'm really afraid I will go to hell soon. I worry that I will just be teleported there. I won't die, I'll just magically vanish and appear in hell. I know it doesn't make sense, but that's what I often think.
Anyway, today has been pretty nice so far. I'm going to have some fun playing a video game on my PC. I will also work on homework for school.
If you read this, please pray that I will do well in school. Also pray that I won't go to hell soon. I'm really afraid that I'm going to go to hell soon. I know the good voice says that I am saved, but I'm worried he's lying to me.
Thank you,
SnowTiger
I've been having an okay day so far today. I gave some change to a poor man and I bought a game for my PC. The good voice in my head says that "God sees the good in us." I hope he is right. I worry that the good voice is lying to me, but what he says is really nice. He says Jesus loves me and won't hurt me. I really have so many fears about God being out to get me. I feel so bad about my sins sometimes. Things could be worse though. Things could be a lot worse.
I worry about magical signs that I've been given. I found writings around my house telling me to go to hell and condemning me. The evil voice says really nasty things to me. I'm really afraid that he is going to be right. There are reasons why I worry that the good voice is lying to me. This is because he has turned evil before when I was really really upset and down about things. What he says is really nice though. He really does help me with my fears and worries.
I want to watch The Peanutbutter Falcon with my mom soon. I watched it in theaters but she hasn't watched it yet. It's a really good movie and I really identify with it because I have a mental illness. It's probably my favorite movie of the year. I really liked Knives Out too though. I also liked A Beautiful Day in the Neighborhood.
Anyway, I'm trying to not believe I'm going to hell. The good voice says, "You have something that is worth more than all the riches in the world: salvation." I hope I am saved. People say it is a gift from God. I worry that I haven't been given salvation. There are many times that I feel too bad to be saved. My sins are really really bad. Not just little things, but big things. There are times that I feel like God forgive little things, but not big things.
I hope the good voice is not lying. I'm really afraid I will go to hell soon. I worry that I will just be teleported there. I won't die, I'll just magically vanish and appear in hell. I know it doesn't make sense, but that's what I often think.
Anyway, today has been pretty nice so far. I'm going to have some fun playing a video game on my PC. I will also work on homework for school.
If you read this, please pray that I will do well in school. Also pray that I won't go to hell soon. I'm really afraid that I'm going to go to hell soon. I know the good voice says that I am saved, but I'm worried he's lying to me.
Thank you,
SnowTiger
