Well, I really think I'm going to screw things up. I really wish I hadn't gone back to school. I should have been happy with the way things were. People keep trying to help me, but I don't think I can be helped. I really wish my computer and my laptop were working right, then I wouldn't screw things up and I wouldn't go to hell. However, my laptop and PC aren't working right and I'm paranoid that I will get a certain grade in my classes and then I will go to hell. Everyone tells me I'm wrong about things, but I always feel like I'm right. I feel like I've been given signs from God that I'm going to hell and there is nothing I can do about it.
The evil voice I hear in my head keeps telling me "It's all a part of God's plan." He says "I couldn't come up with this!" The evil voice laughs at me all day long. He says he is from the future and he knows I'm going to hell and there is nothing I can do about it. I've heard this evil voice in my head even when I was a little kid. Even when I was a little kid he was laughing at me and telling me about the future. He would make jokes about sins that I hadn't even committed yet. After I committed certain sins when I was an adult I would look back to my time as a kid and I would realize that he knew all along that I would commit certain sins. He was joking about my sins even when I was just a little kid.
Anyway, hopefully I am wrong. Everyone tells me it's crazy. My parents tell me that it is impossible for God to teleport me to hell. They say "teleportation hasn't been invented yet!" However, I have seen objects and even people get teleported before. I was listening to one of my favorite Christian songs and I saw a leaf get teleported from my desk.
Thanks to everyone who has tried to help me. It does make me feel better when people say God loves me. I usually feel better for a little while and then my mind starts putting things together again and I start thinking I'm going to hell again and there is nothing I can do about it.
The evil voice I hear in my head keeps telling me "It's all a part of God's plan." He says "I couldn't come up with this!" The evil voice laughs at me all day long. He says he is from the future and he knows I'm going to hell and there is nothing I can do about it. I've heard this evil voice in my head even when I was a little kid. Even when I was a little kid he was laughing at me and telling me about the future. He would make jokes about sins that I hadn't even committed yet. After I committed certain sins when I was an adult I would look back to my time as a kid and I would realize that he knew all along that I would commit certain sins. He was joking about my sins even when I was just a little kid.
Anyway, hopefully I am wrong. Everyone tells me it's crazy. My parents tell me that it is impossible for God to teleport me to hell. They say "teleportation hasn't been invented yet!" However, I have seen objects and even people get teleported before. I was listening to one of my favorite Christian songs and I saw a leaf get teleported from my desk.
Thanks to everyone who has tried to help me. It does make me feel better when people say God loves me. I usually feel better for a little while and then my mind starts putting things together again and I start thinking I'm going to hell again and there is nothing I can do about it.
