~ a shout of Joy comes in the morning
Mother's Day, sort of sucked for me. Being a stepmom....
My greatest dream in all the world was to be a Mom to my own child. Hubbs' scars and shattered spirit made that impossible for us when we first married. Then, several times now, we have tried hard to get pregnant and don't. I think I may have had a miscarriage once, very early in. I can't WAIT to ask You, Jesus, why this is my path. Anyway, Mother's Day, LEAST favorite day of the year for me since Teknon left. Makes me sad. Heart and soul into him, You KNOW what I poured out for him.... the realest love I've ever ever known, besides mine for You, Jesus, was mine for him.
So I cried.... too much... hadn't done THAT in a long time. Couldn't seem to stop, either.
Saw my Mother-in-Law the night before. That was a good visit. She's a dear ole soul. Seasoned with time into a sweeter woman that I have ever known her to be, these past few years.
My Mom, off to the sisters' I guess, no answer on her phone. Her present is still on the counter in the kitchen. That's about par. I know she had her happiest possible day with my sister's family.
My daughter off with her Mom. I saw her today, I stopped in to her work to say Happy Mother's Day to her.
So, I just felt kind of like I wanted the clock to go faster.
Then, we went to bed.... and I was glad.
The dawn came, I bristled up and went to the office. Coffee and my MP3 and off and running to work I was. I greeted every body, sat down, logged in, hit the keyboard and took solace in my predictable little job.
And THEN......
My sweetest friend, a Bengali Christian pastor who heads a ministry for the Asian Christians in the USA and is founder a children's orphanage in India, came and stood beside my desk with a plastic bag. "Good Morning, " he said in his lyrical voice. I always crack a smile at the sight of him. We have taken much comfort in prayers together at work. He has prayed for my Teknon MANY times and knows my heart toward Teknon.
He handed me the bag. Inside was a nicely wrapped gift with a greeting on it for Mother's Day! I told him he was going to make me cry. He said he preached the sermon in his church yesterday on Proverbs 31:10-31. He was telling me about the sermon while I was opening my gift. I was a little overwhelmed by the look of generosity's Spirit on his face. I really almost cried. He said all Mothers should be honored on this day for what they contribute.....
YOU heard me, Jesus. You heard me crying yesterday. You sent to me the person who is MOST LIKELY TO HEAR YOU, and obey, when You ask them to comfort me. What a treasure! It is a rock for my garden. It has a cross in relief on it and the saying,"Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace." It looks a lot like this, except with a cross instead of the 'flor de lis.'
I will never forget that generous hearted smile and I am going to place that beautiful stone in HammockLand.... where Peace reigns most regularly at GR.
Thank You, Jesus. Thank you for sending me into my day dancing with with joy. YOU ARE the King of me.
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Mother's Day, sort of sucked for me. Being a stepmom....
My greatest dream in all the world was to be a Mom to my own child. Hubbs' scars and shattered spirit made that impossible for us when we first married. Then, several times now, we have tried hard to get pregnant and don't. I think I may have had a miscarriage once, very early in. I can't WAIT to ask You, Jesus, why this is my path. Anyway, Mother's Day, LEAST favorite day of the year for me since Teknon left. Makes me sad. Heart and soul into him, You KNOW what I poured out for him.... the realest love I've ever ever known, besides mine for You, Jesus, was mine for him.
So I cried.... too much... hadn't done THAT in a long time. Couldn't seem to stop, either.
Saw my Mother-in-Law the night before. That was a good visit. She's a dear ole soul. Seasoned with time into a sweeter woman that I have ever known her to be, these past few years.
My Mom, off to the sisters' I guess, no answer on her phone. Her present is still on the counter in the kitchen. That's about par. I know she had her happiest possible day with my sister's family.
My daughter off with her Mom. I saw her today, I stopped in to her work to say Happy Mother's Day to her.
So, I just felt kind of like I wanted the clock to go faster.
Then, we went to bed.... and I was glad.
The dawn came, I bristled up and went to the office. Coffee and my MP3 and off and running to work I was. I greeted every body, sat down, logged in, hit the keyboard and took solace in my predictable little job.
And THEN......
A Psalm; a Song at the Dedication of the House. A Psalm of David.
1I will extol You, O LORD, for You have lifted me up,
And have not let my enemies rejoice over me.
2O LORD my God,
I cried to You for help, and You healed me.
3O LORD, You have brought up my soul from Sheol;
You have kept me alive, that I would not go down to the pit.
4Sing praise to the LORD, you His godly ones,
And give thanks to His holy name.
5For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for a lifetime;
Weeping may last for the night,
But a shout of joy comes in the morning.
...
11You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have loosed my sackcloth and girded me with gladness,
12That my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent
O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.
You showed me why I love You so much, again!1I will extol You, O LORD, for You have lifted me up,
And have not let my enemies rejoice over me.
2O LORD my God,
I cried to You for help, and You healed me.
3O LORD, You have brought up my soul from Sheol;
You have kept me alive, that I would not go down to the pit.
4Sing praise to the LORD, you His godly ones,
And give thanks to His holy name.
5For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for a lifetime;
Weeping may last for the night,
But a shout of joy comes in the morning.
...
11You have turned for me my mourning into dancing;
You have loosed my sackcloth and girded me with gladness,
12That my soul may sing praise to You and not be silent
O LORD my God, I will give thanks to You forever.
My sweetest friend, a Bengali Christian pastor who heads a ministry for the Asian Christians in the USA and is founder a children's orphanage in India, came and stood beside my desk with a plastic bag. "Good Morning, " he said in his lyrical voice. I always crack a smile at the sight of him. We have taken much comfort in prayers together at work. He has prayed for my Teknon MANY times and knows my heart toward Teknon.
He handed me the bag. Inside was a nicely wrapped gift with a greeting on it for Mother's Day! I told him he was going to make me cry. He said he preached the sermon in his church yesterday on Proverbs 31:10-31. He was telling me about the sermon while I was opening my gift. I was a little overwhelmed by the look of generosity's Spirit on his face. I really almost cried. He said all Mothers should be honored on this day for what they contribute.....
YOU heard me, Jesus. You heard me crying yesterday. You sent to me the person who is MOST LIKELY TO HEAR YOU, and obey, when You ask them to comfort me. What a treasure! It is a rock for my garden. It has a cross in relief on it and the saying,"Lord, make me an instrument of Thy peace." It looks a lot like this, except with a cross instead of the 'flor de lis.'
I will never forget that generous hearted smile and I am going to place that beautiful stone in HammockLand.... where Peace reigns most regularly at GR.
Thank You, Jesus. Thank you for sending me into my day dancing with with joy. YOU ARE the King of me.
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Bow'nDown 
~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
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