Today it is 3 years. Today wasn't a bad day at all. Was only a bit sad and not for long periods.
God has moved me so much further since September. I am now at peace with the fact that his death is forever. It hurt when I thought while typing about the fact I won't see him again. But it is good to be able to feel the hurt than the sensation that I used to think would kill me.
I am thankful to my friends at Church, thankful to the college friends, thankful to God and thankful for everyones prayers who has been praying for me.
I know I need to move on now. But not sure in which way. Definitely not in a relationship way. I mean in a grief way. I feel that I need to put something away but not sure what, maybe it is trying to understand some of the things about his final days. Or even the dread of coping.
God has moved me so much further since September. I am now at peace with the fact that his death is forever. It hurt when I thought while typing about the fact I won't see him again. But it is good to be able to feel the hurt than the sensation that I used to think would kill me.
I am thankful to my friends at Church, thankful to the college friends, thankful to God and thankful for everyones prayers who has been praying for me.
I know I need to move on now. But not sure in which way. Definitely not in a relationship way. I mean in a grief way. I feel that I need to put something away but not sure what, maybe it is trying to understand some of the things about his final days. Or even the dread of coping.
