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Okay on another forum....A secular forum I let the devil have a foot hold.....Any way...My mood was crushing and closing in like walls.....I take gabapentin for mood but I know from the past that if I take a little more than suppose to it will lift me out of the depression....I really had nothing to be depressed or mad about.....I just let things get to me.......I feel like I'm getting closer to God everyday......and, I just feel like I'm not worth any of the work God has done.....Why bother with someone who never passed HS or even went to go get his GED. I'm on SSDI for things that happened in 05.....Please don't tell me to stop my meds if I do that it could hurt me more without a doctors supervision......I wanted to be a preacher.....One that God used as a vessel to touch lives.....Mission work is what I wanted to do but, I HAD BIG DREAMS. I don't feel that anymore.....
All it's about is why I go thru this and that.....? What is the point of all these trials.....Why God.....I think we all get frustrated as some point......But man, this has seemed to just go on and on.....I'm just mad when I stumble because I know in the past I have gotten thru the depression even tho it hurt I made it to the next day God willing.
I just want to be free from this space suit that is filled with so much warped illnesses........A body that has fallen.....
All it's about is why I go thru this and that.....? What is the point of all these trials.....Why God.....I think we all get frustrated as some point......But man, this has seemed to just go on and on.....I'm just mad when I stumble because I know in the past I have gotten thru the depression even tho it hurt I made it to the next day God willing.
I just want to be free from this space suit that is filled with so much warped illnesses........A body that has fallen.....