- Feb 27, 2007
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I'm posting this here because hopefully less people will know about what I'm dealing with. I'm kind of embarrassed to be talking about this. I'm not even sure I belong here. I mean, I'm not depressed. I just feel...well nothing. Nothing at all. Most of the time I'm pretty blah. I mean, I get angry, sad, I do feel happy at times, I laugh, I smile, I have times where I'm in a really good mood, and I definitely don't think I'm depressed, but I don't feel...okay this is where I feel nervous...I don't feel love. Not that I'm not loved or that I don't love in return. I just don't express it like other people. I hate that. I don't even praise and pray and worship like other people in church do. They are so free, and relaxed, and open and to be honest, I'm jealous of their ability to do that. I know I love, I have the knowledge in my head, but not the feeling (i.e, the warmth, the fuzzy feeling, the actual feeling) in my heart. I do not believe that I have any of the symptoms of depression other than just feeling numb, so what's wrong with me? Am I depressed and don't know it? Could it be out of whack serotonin? What?