Good morning to all you sweet dear friends,
I hope you are having a blessed Friday. As I was reading all the posts on this particular thread, I wanted to share the dream I had in my earlier days of being widowed. My husband was in Heaven for about two months already, and my heart was aching so much. I just wanted to see him again. I cried to the Lord that night and asked if I could just see him one more time. I went to bed and in the middle of the night, my husband walked up to my bed, put out his hand and told me to hold his hand. I told him I couldn't do that because he wasn't real. He said hold my hand. I reached out and touched his hand. How real it was. The next thing I remembered he was laying next to me in the bed and talking to me. I couldn't hear what he was saying. Shortly after that, I woke up and the tears came. I crawled out of bed and fell on my knees and worshipped my Heavenly Father, thanking Him for answering my prayers. I felt so comforted. It was such an overwhelming feeling of love from my Saviour. To this day, I can still remember the dream and the wonderful comfort the Lord gave me that night. I also remember telling my children about the wonderful dream I had. I cried with tears of joy as I told them about it and what a wonderful God we have. Oh how He loves us.
On the other subject of meeting someone else - as a human being, I would have moments of wanting someone else in my life. Then I would think of all the stuff that comes with that, and then I would say foreget it. I would go back and forth with my emotions. Not that there was anyone in my life to make me even have these emotions. It was just part of my journey that I was on. Like a yoyo. One day I wanted to meet someone, and the very next day I wouldn't. Can any of you ladies relate? Anyway, at this part of my pilgrimage, I am content (for now). As I am typing this, I have one of my favorite Scriptures in front of me. "But as it is written, Eye hath no seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him." I Corinthians 2:9 I'm chosing to wait on Him.
On another subject - I wanted you girls to know I have been enjoying reading your posts. They are refreshing, encouraging, and a blessing.
Christian Widow
Hi Christianwidow, what you wrote about the visit from your late-husband touched me deeply. As I read your post a memory sprang to mind. It's healing, being able to share these things.
Anyway, about the memory, something happened around a month after my husband's demise. When he was alive, he always mowed the lawn. But afterward I had to hire a gardener because I couldn't do it. One particular morning I was sleeping, and a lawn mower powered up in the back yard, awakening me. I suddenly sprung out of bed and ran to the bedroom window, opened it and shouted, "Bill!" That was my husband's name. But it wasn't Bill mowing the lawn. It was the punctual gardener that I'd hired to do the job that was no longer my husband's chore. When I realized that it wasn't Bill, I burst into tears. And here I am, tearing up over it again.
Isn't it funny as a widow, and I'm sure this is true for widowers as well, how, especially at first, we talk about our respective spouses in the present tense, as if they're still with us. It took me along time to get over doing that.
Absolutely I relate to the yo-yo thing you describe. It's like, I'll meet someone occasionally and find myself attracted. But when it comes right down to it, I don't think I'm ready, and God hasn't indicated otherwise. Despite bumps in the road, I'm once again wary of the allure of sexual sin. Sometimes being lonely and simultaneously drawn to the opposite sex can be so deceptive, in that it can cause a person to fall in not love, but lust, not to mention the ensuing pain. Paul says in Corinthians to flee from sexual immorality. And on those rare occasions when flight from such sin wasn't an option... I in retrospect became convicted, and reminded in no uncertain terms that my body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, and not a playground.
Thanks for the scripture Christianwidow, here's the cross-reference for it from the KJV,
"For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither hath the eye seen, O God, beside thee, what he hath prepared for him that waiteth for him." Isaiah 64:4
Here's another really cool one,
"For, behold, I create new heavens and a new earth: and the former shall not be remembered, nor come into mind." Isaiah 65:17
Blessings!
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