As some of you have read, I'm new here... and, I've been a widow for over 8 years. For the last couple of those years I've contemplated meeting someone else, but there's a part of me that feels like I'd be cheating on my late-husband, because he was wonderful.
When first widowed, I was lonely and I did date a couple of guys, yet I'd find myself disinterested and would begin to miss my late-husband again! So, after about 4 months of that, I made a decision to make Jesus my husband. And along with this came celibacy, not to mention church fellowship and involvement, study of scripture, writing Christian poetry, and the like.
My celibacy lasted for 7 years, and 2 years' ago I met a man who was potentially all wrong for me. He pursued me for about a year, and while I struggled to keep the mutual attraction at bay, I finally caved, and we saw each other on and off for about a year. I was backslidden. Several months ago I ended the liaison and repented, a gracious God has forgiven me, and this person and I have gone our separate ways. Because I once again discovered that to go outside the boundaries of marriage for physical involvement was and is painful, I'm back on track as far as being that celibate widow.
Being a celibate Christian isn't easy. I lost my husband when I was 51 years' old, and I'm not even 60 yet. It's seems the logical, not to mention Biblical solution would be to remarry. I'm not sure that's an option. You see, I've been blessed with a certain independence now that I'm single. And to date, God hasn't brought another Christian man into my life. Regardless of how lonely being widowed can be at times, especially around holidays or anniversary dates, etc., I'm inclined to abide by God's will. While sometimes His will seems reclusive, it sure beats the alternative of making ultimately painful choices, some of which we either learn from, or we don't.
So as far as dating, which one is preferable for a Christian widow, or widower for that matter? Remaining celibate? Or not? I realize that there are no black-and-white answers to the preceding questions; that said, I'm open to others' thoughts. Thanks and blessings!
When first widowed, I was lonely and I did date a couple of guys, yet I'd find myself disinterested and would begin to miss my late-husband again! So, after about 4 months of that, I made a decision to make Jesus my husband. And along with this came celibacy, not to mention church fellowship and involvement, study of scripture, writing Christian poetry, and the like.
My celibacy lasted for 7 years, and 2 years' ago I met a man who was potentially all wrong for me. He pursued me for about a year, and while I struggled to keep the mutual attraction at bay, I finally caved, and we saw each other on and off for about a year. I was backslidden. Several months ago I ended the liaison and repented, a gracious God has forgiven me, and this person and I have gone our separate ways. Because I once again discovered that to go outside the boundaries of marriage for physical involvement was and is painful, I'm back on track as far as being that celibate widow.
Being a celibate Christian isn't easy. I lost my husband when I was 51 years' old, and I'm not even 60 yet. It's seems the logical, not to mention Biblical solution would be to remarry. I'm not sure that's an option. You see, I've been blessed with a certain independence now that I'm single. And to date, God hasn't brought another Christian man into my life. Regardless of how lonely being widowed can be at times, especially around holidays or anniversary dates, etc., I'm inclined to abide by God's will. While sometimes His will seems reclusive, it sure beats the alternative of making ultimately painful choices, some of which we either learn from, or we don't.
So as far as dating, which one is preferable for a Christian widow, or widower for that matter? Remaining celibate? Or not? I realize that there are no black-and-white answers to the preceding questions; that said, I'm open to others' thoughts. Thanks and blessings!
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