Where do you start? God has be4en involved in my whole life, leading and guiding me. Not to say that I listened a whole lot. In United church sermon when I was six, the sermon took on a whole different meaning, when the voice of God spoke to my heart, and I could not understand how it was not affecting anyone else. God spoke to me through that sermon and I gave my heart to the Lord. He shone His blessings upon me and I knew that He loved me.
Life takes you on one experience after another and by the time I was caught up in a abusive marriage I needed to talk to the Lord about this. In the course of conversations the Lord lead me into a deeper study of His Word. In the months that followed the study got deeper and deeper into the character, life, and future that was planned by God for His believers.
There was also the conviction that was upon me that I would gain more more out of scripture until I met with God. I search to know what kind of God I should expect, what did others experience when they met him, and what did it feel like, what did they see, and what did they come to understand. As the Lord lead me into His Word and into what they experienced He was preparing me to meet with Him.
Then one day I came across in Corinthians the Temple of God is me and that is where He wants to dwell. Those Words spoke to my heart in a brighter deeper why than I had ever before understood. I opened up my Temple and asked Him to come in. I started to repent of all the wickedness that I could think of.
Pretty soon the Lord was bringing to mind all kinds of sins, I never even considered. Not only that, if I didn't understand the wickedness, then the Lord would show me the root, the branches and the fruit of the wickedness as it spread to all those around me. The shock of realizing that those little "white" sins, those little things are big things, brought me to an abhorance of myself and selfish ways. Up to that moment I had not thought myself that bad. How long this went on, I could not tell you, because I was so caught up in the revelations of sins and sinfulness that when it was quite and there was no more sins brought to mind.
I was preplexed. It hit me, it was the peace that passes all understanding. It was wonderful. There I was praising the Lord for opening up the Book of My Life and going over it with me, blotting out the sins with His blood, and giving me a new chapter, a new life.
Then there was a knock at the door, I opened to see a what looked like a drunken bum, but more than that it was the Holy Spirit standing there. Not something you can see, just something that makes you feel like Isaiah crying "Woe is me, woe is me for I am unclean. Since I was more conscious of the Holy Spirit than the fellow at my door, and I felt so unworthy to be in His Presence, I slammed the door.
Scared the ...out of me. This is more real than even I was prepared to experience. I sat down in teh living room trying to figure out what just had happened. Oh, no I thought I just slammed the door on the Holy Spirit. With deepest remorse I said "I sorry, I am Soory, please come back." Then the Holy Spirit said to me "Behold I stand at the door and knock, and any man who hears my voice, I will come in and sup with them and him with me." Rev 3:20
We talked and everything the Holy Spirit said is backed up by scripture, and if I asked a quesion that could not be answered with scripture, the Holy Spirit would use yay or nay or vision that I may see. The word Holy has taken a whole new meaning, it is not just something to post on door, books and altars. It is the real essense of the presence of God himself. It is Almighty, Pure, Holy and sin can not dwell in God presence. Sin will hang off your flesh like was melting, it will burn up inside you if you have not been cleansed.
Since that day, I have searched the scriptures to find all that I had been shown, told, and explained. It was twenty-four years, and now here I am with fellow sojourners drawing closer to the throne of Heaven, worshipping the Creator and my Redeemer.
I wish everyone has a personal experience with God that there is no doubt as the truth regarding His existence, His plan of salvation, His love for us all, and His soon return.
