"Your not Crazy" - Help!

[Mattacious]

I have given this some thought and seeing as this place is so open I would like some advice on something. I'm not sure where the suitable place is for this topic so: moderators please move it accordingly.

I can't help but scream / gasp really viciously when I'm praying or if I hear something about Jesus that touches me. My whole body goes really tense, so tense sometimes I feel that if someone were to attack me at that point I would knock them to other side of the room or through a wall very easily. I used to think I had demonic oppression but I have all sorts cast out of me before (thanks to the Pentecostals). Once someone from my old church said when they looked in my eyes it was like he was looking at the devil. (Somehow we started steering at each other in the car at one point when he picked me up before church).

I don't understand how this could be demonic though; I pray for people and see their salvation. This is my gift. I have prayed for people I see on TV then see them get saved. When I pray for people there is no doubt in my mind that they won’t get saved it’s like I’m speaking out the future or something. I’ve had lots of weird things happen between me and God like seeing scriptures and going blind then seeing again, once God tampered with time for me; I know it sounds crazy but it's the truth. Ever since I gave my heart to the Lord I have felt like I’ve been going nuts, seriously! Now I’m too scared to go further with God lest I be committed to a mental institute or something. It was never like this before I was saved – I didn’t’ even think about anything. Now my mind is going crazy.

 

[Jillymac]

Hi Backslidden

When you describe that you react in such a way when faced with Jesus it normally would imply that you may still be oppressed from a demonic spirit. If you still get this, then you maybe have not been fully delivered. I do have to ask though, how do you keep praying for people? Do you keep on gasping or screaming?

There isn't really a gift as to what you speak of. Yes we can certainly pray for others to realise they need salvation and to get saved. However not even God can "get" someone saved - because we have all been given Freewill. It is always the person's choice to make.

I would suggest looking for a Christian (spirit filled) establishment who have a deliverance ministry, make an appointment with them. For someone to pray into the right thing in your life, they should have the gift of discernment or be told from the Holy Spirit what exactly to pray into (or against for that matter).

Until you find the people who can help you, stand firm on the word of God, no matter how much you scream or gasp - plead the blood of Jesus Christ over yourself. There is power and authority in the name of Jesus Christ.

Praise and worship God - get the worship music on and sing His praises!!

 

[Mattacious]

Hi Backslidden

When you describe that you react in such a way when faced with Jesus it normally would imply that you may still be oppressed from a demonic spirit. If you still get this, then you maybe have not been fully delivered. I do have to ask though, how do you keep praying for people? Do you keep on gasping or screaming?

There isn't really a gift as to what you speak of. Yes we can certainly pray for others to realise they need salvation and to get saved. However not even God can "get" someone saved - because we have all been given Freewill. It is always the person's choice to make.

I would suggest looking for a Christian (spirit filled) establishment who have a deliverance ministry, make an appointment with them. For someone to pray into the right thing in your life, they should have the gift of discernment or be told from the Holy Spirit what exactly to pray into (or against for that matter).

Until you find the people who can help you, stand firm on the word of God, no matter how much you scream or gasp - plead the blood of Jesus Christ over yourself. There is power and authority in the name of Jesus Christ.

Praise and worship God - get the worship music on and sing His praises!!

I don't feel like I need help though.

Yes I almost always gasp and roar when I pray for salvation, I can't help it, it comes from deep within me. I even laugh while I'm doing it and once I walked around the outside of my house stomping like a maniac claiming souls. It just depends on the person as well.

Look I don't know why it comes true but it does. It really does. Once I pray for them it's seriously as if they don't have a choice. I can't explain it - my mate’s don’t understand it - it's just the way it is. All I can think of is that maybe God wouldn't have got me to pray for them in the first place if he knew they weren’t going to accept it - who knows, God works in mysterious ways. But when I do pray for someone, almost always it’s God telling me to do it. I can be anywhere at any time and God will start whispering to me to pray for a specific person, and I’ll start praying and while I’m praying I receive a revelation of that person and actually picture then as a changed person and get tearful in the middle of public. I get away with this by wearing sunglasses or telling people I’m tired. But I must tell you this has gone dormant for about 3 months now. If God tells me to pray for someone I just mumble a few words and that’s ya lot sorta thing.

If this is a demonic it would be a very strange daemon wanting salvation. I really don’t know though.
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