you probably dont remember me

[heavenliejediofthebeach]

but yeah, i am a si'er

i feel so down. last year i went over six months withour, started up later, stopped and now im doing again. i have no drive,...im trying to follow God the best i can..all i want is to find the guy im going to marry, its all ive ever wanted, but its hopeless and i confessed to God that i have completely no faith in that area and im just too *different*. i love my job, but i have no life outside of it...


i guess this is how my life is suppossed to be

sorry for being gone so long..

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

I don't think mine's a case of not remembering you...I'm fairly new around these parts . I'd love to get to know you if you're willing though!

I want you to know that we are each unique in our own ways, but being different doesn't make us terrible people. Each one of us was slowly and tenderly hand-crafted by the Lord - and He doesn't make mistakes. He yearns for us to find the joy that comes from loving Him, just as He loves us with such an unmatchable passion.

It's true that we all go through periods of 'Silence', the lows in a spiritual mountain range where your mind may tell you that He loves you, but your heart is far from agreeing. As much as the silence hurts though, don't give up! Pray and be assured that He not only hears you - He listens. Read the Bible and try to make time for it daily. The soul needs to be fed just like our physical selves do. If you can, join a Bible study. Tell the Deceiver that you won't let him beat you. You have strength and you have courage - but even more you have the Defender and Protector on your side. You can't lose.

We are also always here when you want to talk or vent or question and if you ever want to, my PM box is always open .

I am praying for you Beautiful.

 

[HolyOne87]

but yeah, i am a si'er

i feel so down. last year i went over six months withour, started up later, stopped and now im doing again. i have no drive,...im trying to follow God the best i can..all i want is to find the guy im going to marry, its all ive ever wanted, but its hopeless and i confessed to God that i have completely no faith in that area and im just too *different*. i love my job, but i have no life outside of it...


i guess this is how my life is suppossed to be

sorry for being gone so long..

First off, Hi! I've only been on here for 3 months so im sure we havent met(at least I dont think).
anyway, your post..I know its hard..because you REALLY want something and your not getting it. Maybe God wants you to love yourself completely before God brings forth to you someone for you. I've always heard that you have to love yourself first before you can love someone else(i guess thats why my first relationship failed miserably).
I know how it feels to be different..I am 19, and i feel like the complete opposite of every teen I know in my life.im a Non-drinker, im not into drugs, etc etc. Sometimes being different is good..I mean, my difference stood out to a lot of people..especially to one who is now my significant other. I am sure one day that will happen to you..You will stand out to that one special guy as well.
Since you say you have no life outside your job, maybe start a life outside it. Get a few friends together and plan to go out maybe once a week..whether it be a girls night or anything.
As far as your drives to stop, it can be anything. It can be for the family you might have in the future..or the family you have now in your life that are there for you.
I know I jumped everyone..Just wanted to make sure I hit points and didnt forget them.
I sure hope that your life turns around for you. I will pray to God that it does..and that your life will be full of happiness and joy!

Hugs for you

+God Bless+