... not for speaking my mind on this dating issue. I mean every word I say about my experiences. But the way I've been handling myself, I can say must be absolutely exasperating to some people. And I know that some of you are getting tired of hearing my dating troubles. I do apologize for going on and on about certain things.
This has been a difficult thing for me to go through, and I assure you, every story, every example, every hypothetical I've brought up is what I've seen and heard. It really has been that way. At times, I seem to take your encouragements and stick them in a drawer somewhere. I know it seems this way, but please belive I am taking to heart every word from everyone who's reached out to me.
Before you judge me as a bitter or harsh person, take the time to soak in what I've written from my own personal lifetime of experiences, to indicate to you why I might feel this way about things.
A lot of times, the people who are outwardly the most angry are really simply the deepest wounded. They are not naturally angry people. It is just that they are wounded. Good examples would be Belle's Beast from the Disney cartoon, or young Anakin Skywalker as he was being pulled by Palpatine the emperor to explore more fully the powers given him.
Thank you all for bearing up with me. I do realize that you write what you write out of love and out of concern and interest in what I'm going through. That you took time to even write back shows something of your character.
Please do not feel that I am trying to rebuff your efforts, but you must understand that this is the hardest situation I've faced in my whole entire life. It is really awful to me to go through this.
That being said, I don't want to take what is an already-awful situation, and compound it by hurting others around me who are just simply reaching out to me. In this spirit, I offer my apologies to all of you in the hopes that they will be sufficient to you for my display of anger here.
I do not believe that I need to spend the rest of my life in a vicious cycle of changes and remodels to be "the perfect man". I don't believe that I need to be on a treadmill chasing a carrot I will never catch.
I don't believe that I need to make improvements to be able to get a woman. I have to make improvements to my life will be at its fullest capacity, so that I may live long with a wonderfully satisfying existence.
Thank you all for your support and prayers.
Stephen
This has been a difficult thing for me to go through, and I assure you, every story, every example, every hypothetical I've brought up is what I've seen and heard. It really has been that way. At times, I seem to take your encouragements and stick them in a drawer somewhere. I know it seems this way, but please belive I am taking to heart every word from everyone who's reached out to me.
Before you judge me as a bitter or harsh person, take the time to soak in what I've written from my own personal lifetime of experiences, to indicate to you why I might feel this way about things.
A lot of times, the people who are outwardly the most angry are really simply the deepest wounded. They are not naturally angry people. It is just that they are wounded. Good examples would be Belle's Beast from the Disney cartoon, or young Anakin Skywalker as he was being pulled by Palpatine the emperor to explore more fully the powers given him.
Thank you all for bearing up with me. I do realize that you write what you write out of love and out of concern and interest in what I'm going through. That you took time to even write back shows something of your character.
Please do not feel that I am trying to rebuff your efforts, but you must understand that this is the hardest situation I've faced in my whole entire life. It is really awful to me to go through this.
That being said, I don't want to take what is an already-awful situation, and compound it by hurting others around me who are just simply reaching out to me. In this spirit, I offer my apologies to all of you in the hopes that they will be sufficient to you for my display of anger here.
I do not believe that I need to spend the rest of my life in a vicious cycle of changes and remodels to be "the perfect man". I don't believe that I need to be on a treadmill chasing a carrot I will never catch.
I don't believe that I need to make improvements to be able to get a woman. I have to make improvements to my life will be at its fullest capacity, so that I may live long with a wonderfully satisfying existence.
Thank you all for your support and prayers.
Stephen