- Oct 22, 2019
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I’m not sure are this a right forum list to ask? But I just feel like I familiar to this forum list. Also,I get OCD. Lately, this day I got a vows that I would read a bible, pray to god, listen to workship music, and post a bible verse on Instagram everyday. That this seems to be my thought without ocd in someway but I don’t sure. I mean today I just really want to study bible and seek god. And I mean it look reasonable for me to have those vow. But right after I know that I have vow, I just so anxious. I mean I worried that someday I would broke the vows. It might be because I sick and not be able to post bible verse. Or I get the internet problem. I feel like I make vows like if I broke it, my last chance to get salvation is gone. (After I broke a lot of them). It seems like I make a vows like if I broke it , the Holy Spirit will go from me. I just so confused now. I mean I don’t know that if I broke it, does Holy Spirit will go out from me immediately or not? Does I have time to confess my sin and be forgiven? How long will this vow bound to me? This is weird question but Do this vow bound to me after my life too? Since the vow mention everyday.I just worried that If I broke it near my death? And I won’t have time to repent? Or I better break it tomorrow so I have more time to repent? So I can start to seriously seek god without some vow that bound me? And today,in some point I feel like I got a thought likes this is my last chance to get a salvation. I haven’t talk to god or hear his voice in thought.I means in the way that most Christian ask god and Holy Spirit everyday and find a answer. I may have hear his voice but cannot classify it. I just don’t know. I don’t know did this feeling that told me that’s my last chance come from Holy Spirit.I search and a lot of people say Holy Spirit voice is something that pop up in your thought too. But, Actually lately I just watch a video about one girl that said god said to her that it is her last chance, so I don’t know did I confused and get mixed up.