Worried that life is too good

[tripletiger1200]

I've come up against a problem that sounds really stupid, but is absolutely miserable.
I've been worrying that life is too good. God chose to save me, He put me in a home with parents that loved me and are able to feed me and pay for my education, I have a job that I love, God has given me a wonderful girlfriend, way more assurance and comfort than I could ask for and imagine, and even in my rebellious past protected me considerably from dangerous and stupid decisions I made. He has even been able to change me drastically with His spirit through all the OCD. When I look at everything God has done for me I am really thankful, but also scared and awestruck. I do not at all understand why He would do these things, and I am afraid. I know He loves me, but it feels almost too good to be true, like I'm delusional and things can't be this way, or that more disaster is on the way. I went through some pretty considerable hardships the past two years, and I'm just now starting to pull out of them, so it feels very disquieting to be happy now. I just worry God has blessed me so much in this life, so I won't be saved because I already got all my good things. And I feel like hardships that He could throw at me in this life won't be very bad, so I would still feel blessed. I'm so detatched from the world around me most of the time that things that most people struggle with blow by me and I struggle with ridiculous things others would never struggle with.
I guess I am just worried because if God has blessed me with so much and given me the strength to work through so many difficulties recently then I just don't understand how He could possibly want to keep going with it, even though I do want these things. I'm just afraid to be happy I guess and I can't understand how to fix that.

 

[gracealone]

Hi Triple tiger,
I'm remembering how David was so overwhelmed by the goodness of God toward him and he in effect said,"Who am I or my family that you should treat us in this way? Is this your usual way in dealing with mankind?"
It is humbling to receive God's grace and blessings when we are well aware that we don't deserve any of it.
As far as OCD goes it's unsettling because you begin to see the contrast and then you think... "this can't be right, something bad will happen soon". Then you start to think about that and the dread of it robs you of enjoying and relaxing in the blessing of today.
I do this about a lot of things. I just adore my parents. They are such a huge part of my life and my joy. They are really getting up there in age and I find myself focusing on the possibility of God taking them home soon more than focusing on the joyful moments that I have with them right now. I hate when I do that because it robs me of fully enjoying them right now. So I'm practicing living in the moment rather than trying to walk into a future which doesn't even exist as of yet. There will be bridges to cross in all our futures. Some will be lovely and easy to cross where every step reminds us of just how blessed we are. Some will be difficult and treacherous and will remind us of just how dependant we are on God to carry us across them. The main point is that we can't walk anywhere but on the bridge that is right now directly under our feet. Remember that it is God that gives us all things to enjoy. When "He leads us in the green pastures or beside the quiet stream" we need to praise Him and revel in that moment. When He leads us through the valley of the shadow of death we need to declare... "thou art with me!", and then cling to Him with all our might. Both situations are for our good.
Take a deep breath and just let go and let God do His good work in you.
Mitzi

I've come up against a problem that sounds really stupid, but is absolutely miserable.
I've been worrying that life is too good. God chose to save me, He put me in a home with parents that loved me and are able to feed me and pay for my education, I have a job that I love, God has given me a wonderful girlfriend, way more assurance and comfort than I could ask for and imagine, and even in my rebellious past protected me considerably from dangerous and stupid decisions I made. He has even been able to change me drastically with His spirit through all the OCD. When I look at everything God has done for me I am really thankful, but also scared and awestruck. I do not at all understand why He would do these things, and I am afraid. I know He loves me, but it feels almost too good to be true, like I'm delusional and things can't be this way, or that more disaster is on the way. I went through some pretty considerable hardships the past two years, and I'm just now starting to pull out of them, so it feels very disquieting to be happy now. I just worry God has blessed me so much in this life, so I won't be saved because I already got all my good things. And I feel like hardships that He could throw at me in this life won't be very bad, so I would still feel blessed. I'm so detatched from the world around me most of the time that things that most people struggle with blow by me and I struggle with ridiculous things others would never struggle with.
I guess I am just worried because if God has blessed me with so much and given me the strength to work through so many difficulties recently then I just don't understand how He could possibly want to keep going with it, even though I do want these things. I'm just afraid to be happy I guess and I can't understand how to fix that.

 

[earagun]

I've come up against a problem that sounds really stupid, but is absolutely miserable.
I've been worrying that life is too good. God chose to save me, He put me in a home with parents that loved me and are able to feed me and pay for my education, I have a job that I love, God has given me a wonderful girlfriend, way more assurance and comfort than I could ask for and imagine, and even in my rebellious past protected me considerably from dangerous and stupid decisions I made. He has even been able to change me drastically with His spirit through all the OCD. When I look at everything God has done for me I am really thankful, but also scared and awestruck. I do not at all understand why He would do these things, and I am afraid. I know He loves me, but it feels almost too good to be true, like I'm delusional and things can't be this way, or that more disaster is on the way. I went through some pretty considerable hardships the past two years, and I'm just now starting to pull out of them, so it feels very disquieting to be happy now. I just worry God has blessed me so much in this life, so I won't be saved because I already got all my good things. And I feel like hardships that He could throw at me in this life won't be very bad, so I would still feel blessed. I'm so detatched from the world around me most of the time that things that most people struggle with blow by me and I struggle with ridiculous things others would never struggle with.
I guess I am just worried because if God has blessed me with so much and given me the strength to work through so many difficulties recently then I just don't understand how He could possibly want to keep going with it, even though I do want these things. I'm just afraid to be happy I guess and I can't understand how to fix that.

sounds like everyday life for the average person, only your just really analyzing ever aspect, most of us have good and bad days alike, joyful times and sad, Its just the roller coaster of life, try not focussing so much on the what ifs and just take it as it comes, there are enough worries in a day, no sense in creating more that at the moment don't even exist

 

[OCD=Owie]

Sounds like an obsessive compulsive thought process to me. You spent so much time be miserable that now that you feel better, you feel like you're doing something wrong. There's nothing wrong with enjoying what God has blessed you with. There's also nothing wrong with relaxing and being happy. In fact, that's an important part of leading a healthy lifestyle.

Try not to be so hard on yourself, buddy!

 

[bluestormz]

Enjoy every minute of it, You don't want to end up like me.