I know what the typical response to this sort of thing is ("we go there for the Eucharist, not to feel good"), so saying that won't miraculously change anything but for the past few weeks I've been feeling a lack of interest and satisfaction on the Liturgy-of-the-Word part of the Mass (the Liturgy-of-the-Eucharist part is fine). Granted, I have too many forces in real life going against me, but I want the all-powerful God to win, not the enemy.
I don't mind giving specifics per se, but I don't want to drag the place down. I'm also worried about other aspects of my faith declining.
Sometimes, I doubt that the things in the New Testament actually happened
One good thing though, I believe that the Christian model for salvation is correct. My brain keeps asking "did it really happen though?" I worry about receiving Communion under these circumstances.
It could also be medication making my brain feel numb. It's quite effective otherwise, however.
I'm glad that it's not like Calvinism where, they would tell me that I was never a true believer to begin with. But I still hope that it's not what it means in my case.
I don't mind giving specifics per se, but I don't want to drag the place down. I'm also worried about other aspects of my faith declining.
Sometimes, I doubt that the things in the New Testament actually happened
One good thing though, I believe that the Christian model for salvation is correct. My brain keeps asking "did it really happen though?" I worry about receiving Communion under these circumstances.
It could also be medication making my brain feel numb. It's quite effective otherwise, however.
I'm glad that it's not like Calvinism where, they would tell me that I was never a true believer to begin with. But I still hope that it's not what it means in my case.
