will you pray for me

[kenny1999]

That's sad that you can't talk to your dad or sister. Sometimes you can't, yaknow? I technically talk to my mom sometimes, but it's mostly just her talking and me listening, cuz we don't really get along. It really sucks when you get a boss that treats you badly. Sometimes it's better to apply for another job while you still have a job though, cuz otherwise then you have to do volunteer service in the meantime, which isn't bad but it doesn't pay the bills. I have trouble with friends too. I have my own problems. Yaknow there are a lot of people in our generation that are in the same situation that you are in because of the Great Recession. I spent about 2 years not talking to anyone for breakfast lunch and dinner, and I cracked like an egg. Do you ever talk to your mom? What was your bachelor's degree in? What kind of entry level jobs can you get with it?

It's really not important what Bachelor's degree I am in and what kinds of entry level jobs I can get with. I know all about this is not important, It's really not the key about that. The key is that some time in your life, you will think that you are not 'suitable' in this world. The world wants you to 'leave'. We know working hard is the key to success but the reality is no matter how hard you work you may not only get NO success, but also get failed. I WORKED VERY HARD for my companies but <edit> To me, love, faith seem like something only existing in the world of Internet, in the virtual world. I can't feel it in the real world.

 

[orangeness365]

well at least you can feel the love somewhere. You just have to keep trying to get a job. It's true that no matter how hard you work you may never be successful, because there people born into poverty that can't possibly get ahead.

 

[kenny1999]

well at least you can feel the love somewhere. You just have to keep trying to get a job. It's true that no matter how hard you work you may never be successful, because there people born into poverty that can't possibly get ahead.

Orange, I am not those who are looking for big fortune. In the past I resigned the jobs because I was NOT HAPPY, not because of the salary. A colleague of mine who did exactly the same thing as me and was at the same age with me, he got $500 (in USD) more than me, I felt angry and unfair, not because of the money. In the past I could get better jobs with better paid but I didn't look for those kinds of jobs because I know I will not be happy working with those.

In fact, two years ago, I worked for a company as an activity leader, in the job I had a lot of fun time with young teenagers and kids, I was very happy with them. All these children accepted me and liked me, but the adults did not, their parents did not, my boss did not. I always know what I am doing, but these guys didn't trust me always. I've got no respect. I was once promoted and I was satisfied with the salary, but I quit because I felt too difficult. I felt too unhappy.

Now, after almost 3 years. I still living in the nightmare of the last two jobs, I still hate all the people I worked with, I know they are past, but I don't know how to deal with people again. I don't want to get up every day unhappily

 

[orangeness365]

I understand that you are still holding onto feelings you had years ago. I'm still trying to get over how I behaved when I got to college, like, 5 years ago. Is there another type of job you could get that maybe doesn't pay as much but pays more than minimum wage? It's unfortunate that your bosses were mean to you. It happens. I didn't assume you only cared about the money. When I got out of high school actually I did, because I was sick of always worrying about money, but the cosmic joke is now I'll be, if i'm lucky, getting a job that pays just above minimum wage. I have a hard time forgiving other people and myself. Sometimes I forgive, but it is just easier to do after it's over and I slowly forget. Well, you've already got two jobs on your resume. Maybe you could go into healthcare? It's kind of hard to get into, but you can do a lot in healthcare with an associate's degree, which you could go and get. Don't assume that every boss you get will be mean, not all of them are. Hopefully 3rd times a charm.