Will I hold you in Heaven?

[youthwalk]

I numb myself daily so I won't feel this incredible sense of loss. I wish I did the right thing. I really want to know what my children would have looked like, I want to hold them...see them, touch them...ANYTHING!!

I have two angels in Heaven.

 

[lostndown]

awww honey. im really sorry. ive never done that, im praying 4 u.

 

[woman.at.the.well]

Yes youthwalk, you do have two angels in heaven who are watching over you -- their Mom -- right now. For now Jesus will hold them for you until the Lord calls you home.

Until then my friend and sister in Christ: Look up, and know that God loves you and forgives you as well as your babies do. Find your strength and courage in Him Who first loved you to get you through. He will never leave you or forsake you.

Try to find a counselor to help you through -- this near where you live. It also helps to keep a journal to work through your thoughts. Write your thoughts as prayers to the Lord and He will see you through. Get involved with a Christ centered network of people who can encourage you and be there when you need a friend. And think about doing a memorial for your babies. That is one of the best healing resources you could ever imagine.

Take solice in knowing they are safe and sound and out of this hectic and more increasingly evil world.

Much love & hugs,
WATW

 

[lostndown]

im not coping 2 well. my best friend (16) said since i got preg. by rape, i need to abort it but i REFUSE! i love my baby and dont care how it happened. i cant ever do that. i love babies and just wont do that ever. i am keeping my baby and will raise baby myself.

she said "u cant raise a rape baby. its too hard. get rid of it"... i said absolutely NOT. i am carrying my baby til due date and we will be a family, hehe... im kinda excited cuz i am having a baby in november as long as it doesnt misc. im only 20 but it'll be ok. God is gonna help me get thru it.

this baby is gonna have a great mommy - me. i wanna hold my baby sooner, but cant, but its ok... hugs. it's gonna be ok... my due date should be on 11/16/2006. pray that everything goes fine and baby/me stay healthy. thanks.

im doing fine with preg. ive gained 5 - 7lbs, lol... and baby is moving. my friend is taking me to dr this next week and i see baby on sonogram machine and see if a boy or girl.... girl - alexis kayelyn boy - christopher ryan.

love lots,
michelle

im praying for you!

 

[Protinus]

Youthwalk: please center yourself, focus on your life now...trust in the mission that our Lord gave you and immerse yourself in His Word. Try to talk about this with a grief counselor or your minister. You need to prepare yourself for the children that you will have and be 100% for them and all of their glory!!

But to do that, you need to address the pain of loss that you have now.

 

[youthwalk]

Thank you Protinus. It's been tough at times but through prayer and counselling I've been doing really well. It's been so long ago but there's still the pain of longing sometimes that's very mild which is much better than the pain of guilt. I'm very thankful to God for the works of His hand in my life; through it all He's remained faithful.

Thank you again and God bless you.

 

[lostndown]

hugs... im praying for you too, hon. God's watching over all 3 of u. if ya need anything or need to talk, pm me and i'll reply when i get back online. im here 4 u. God is watching over your angels and you can too as soon as u get to heaven...

 

[ineedunow]

I have had 5 Abortions. I have come to grips with it, the last one being about 4 or 5 years ago. The first when I was 16. I totally understand the God forgives and all, but are my children angry with me? Will I be able to have children when I get married?

 

[LightShadow]

im not coping 2 well. my best friend (16) said since i got preg. by rape, i need to abort it but i REFUSE! i love my baby and dont care how it happened. i cant ever do that. i love babies and just wont do that ever. i am keeping my baby and will raise baby myself.

she said "u cant raise a rape baby. its too hard. get rid of it"... i said absolutely NOT. i am carrying my baby til due date and we will be a family, hehe... im kinda excited cuz i am having a baby in november as long as it doesnt misc. im only 20 but it'll be ok. God is gonna help me get thru it.

this baby is gonna have a great mommy - me. i wanna hold my baby sooner, but cant, but its ok... hugs. it's gonna be ok... my due date should be on 11/16/2006. pray that everything goes fine and baby/me stay healthy. thanks.

im doing fine with preg. ive gained 5 - 7lbs, lol... and baby is moving. my friend is taking me to dr this next week and i see baby on sonogram machine and see if a boy or girl.... girl - alexis kayelyn boy - christopher ryan.

love lots,
michelle

im praying for you!

Wow, you have alot of guts trying to raise a baby from rape... I admire you. I hope everything goes well for you. Keep being strong. I'm sure you'll be a good mom.