Hi everyone,
This is difficult for me.
Right now I am struggling with my emotions in particularly I am afraid that I may be embarrassed of Jesus somehow. Sometimes when I think of Him or talking about Him I will get a strange feeling in my stomach and I think "Oh this is embarrassment" then I worry and start repenting.
Yesterday I was writing one of my novels and felt the urge to mention Jesus' name and I felt the horrible urge to run and finish the page as quickly as possibld in order to get away from that section.
I was horrified and I refused to do it and instead I forced myself to stare at the line where I wrote Jesus' name. Despite this I feel like I have sinned horribly I have repented but I feel like God now wants to take that novel from me as punishment for having that feeling. I dont want to have those feelings but I cant control them, I try to fight them my positive reactions but I still feel like I must be embarrassed of God whether I can control it or not and that He will punish me harshly for it. What can I do? Is it sinning to experience an emotion like that and how do I stop it from coming?
This is difficult for me.
Right now I am struggling with my emotions in particularly I am afraid that I may be embarrassed of Jesus somehow. Sometimes when I think of Him or talking about Him I will get a strange feeling in my stomach and I think "Oh this is embarrassment" then I worry and start repenting.
Yesterday I was writing one of my novels and felt the urge to mention Jesus' name and I felt the horrible urge to run and finish the page as quickly as possibld in order to get away from that section.
I was horrified and I refused to do it and instead I forced myself to stare at the line where I wrote Jesus' name. Despite this I feel like I have sinned horribly I have repented but I feel like God now wants to take that novel from me as punishment for having that feeling. I dont want to have those feelings but I cant control them, I try to fight them my positive reactions but I still feel like I must be embarrassed of God whether I can control it or not and that He will punish me harshly for it. What can I do? Is it sinning to experience an emotion like that and how do I stop it from coming?