When our baby son died.. God gave me a great miracle of peace.. And this was so powerful that when others were weeping I was shock horror.. smiling.. and calm..
I hardly shed a tear through our baby son's funeral I just had no sadness I even got up to speak... It was like I was carried through by His peace.. Having known others who have lost a child.. I know this is not normal... And the immense grief that parents feel when a child dies never did come to me.. only in bits and pieces.. hardly at all.. Gods peace was that powerful in my life..
A lady who was at our church on the day of the funeral.. who worked in a hospice.. and was like a counsellor.. mentor.. came up to me.. And I could see the concern all over her face.. not that our son had died.. but that I was not grieving..
She quoted that verse.... "Jesus wept"... I just said.. I know.. but I can't... I just can't... God is that good to me..
Since I have gone through such peace.. I often have thought about why Jesus wept.. People of course will always interpret it differently..
Death.... illness.. Jesus had power over them.. He of course was also in a human body..
Many times he said.. Your faith has made you well.. It is as if.. our lack of faith keeps Him from doing so much more.. Maybe He cried because He wanted to raise many more people.. not just Lazarus..
There is so much we don't see... don't experience.. don't realise.... but this I do know.. when you have experienced the other side even a little.. I mean Gods awesome presence, visions.. see miracles.. life is just never the same.. And you never want it to stop!!
You of course feel for those who don't yet know or who won't believe.. and maybe Jesus was feeling genuine sorrow.. that He had the power to bring people from death to life.. but so many would never know it..
Like the man who was ill for 38 years.. Jesus said a remarkable thing to him.. Do you want to get well?? That is a whole new topic in itself..
Oh wow... there is so much more to the spiritual.. but oh boy to we need to keep learning and asking and crying out for more.. for our world needs life more then death!! Resurection power more then illness and hopelessness!!