I don't?
I thought I was demanded to love God.
Which seems rather paradoxical if you ask me. How do you command someone to "love" you? Seems like a farce.
Again ... what if you're wrong.
I don't think you realize, that you don't HAVE to do a single thing. You can go on thinking whatever you like to think, doing whatever you want to do, being whoever you want to be. Hate, wrath, love and daisies ... the worst possible sins you can imagine, try your best to walk toe to line. Go ahead .... do what you think will bring you happiness. If you face consequences on earth .... that's a risk you take.
Your eternity .... was PAID FOR. In advance. You don't owe a single thing. You .... are going to die. Barring some miracle, or rapture, or whatever-you-might-believe, you're going to physically die. Your "default" destination is hell ...
Wrong.
A man, stood up ... and went to that place prepared for you that you were supposed to "burn" in, your eternal prison, and said, "No".
Instead ... he went there. So you don't have to.
You turned and said, "what do I owe you ?"
He said NOTHING. At all. You owe nothing. You said, "why'd you do that ? I don't deserve that".
He said ... "it's not about that. It has nothing to do with what you deserve, or don't deserve, owe, or don't owe. I'm doing this for free. Now go, be free, enjoy your ETERNAL LIFE."
No catches.
All these scriptures, and laws, and rules, and all this nonsense that people have filled in your head .... and "Satan", and all this utter foolishness .... is something that IS NOT TRUE for you.
Jesus DID. Others talked about doing. Jesus DID.
This fear you might have, of being wrong, or suffering wrath, or going to hell ... or maybe you've looked at your life and seen some horrors take place on you, or on others .... that's not connected to you in the ways you think it is.
You do not have to even believe a single word I just said .... because there is going to come a moment in your life, when you're going to see something quite clearly: it was YOU that was building that chamber for yourself in hell, reinforcing it's wall, eagerly striving for that destination. You will quite clearly see, that you were the one that was cheering on your own destruction. And everyone else who was trying to get you to do the same, or trying to keep you from doing it .... were confused and ultimately had this "power" over you that wasn't even real. It was an illusion. It won't even be worth looking back at to you. It will be like looking at a ghost.
All Jesus did, was prevent you from doing it to yourself .....
When you put those useless, pointless tools of your own destruction down, and stop looking at everyone else who is still destroying themselves "for the Lord" and trying to force you to do the same to reinforce their own nonsense ... you are going to understand a *glimpse* of why Jesus did what He did, freely, and was able to do so, and not even hold it against you or expect you to pay Him back.
Here's what I think dude .... I think you have a few choices right now in your life. You can keep doing what you're doing ... trying to figure out a pretzel that's not even real. Or you can put it all down, walk away, and go out into the world, leaving behind "Christianity" as you see it, and everyone else sees it ... and go follow and chase your heart. Freely. Without fear of God. Just you, and the world. See what God does for you sir. You keep talking about how awful it is ... and you might be right. So go find out if you wish. If you don't, that's one of your choices also of course.
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