Sometimes... we want to help
so much we do or say the
wrong things without consulting Him who we are supposed to represent... So as a follower of JESUS, Son of the Living God, I ask you to forgive us for not helping you....
Your situation is horrendous.....
I was shocked and saddened by reading your story although I know such assaults are allowed to take place in our schools now..... since we have tossed God out, schools have become *survival of the fittest/meanest*... they should be institutions of learning and those that want to bully others should have their PRIVILEDGE to learn revoked! Sorry, I digress, that is my personal opinion.
The fact you are tormented is bad but
assaulted.... this is
very, very wrong. I know people don't listen now days, I don't doubt you have tried to seek help and no one would listen to you!
The first thing I could suggest is listen to Link's suggestion... "The Wounded Spirit" by Frank Peretti will resonate with your spirit..... it is his own story of torture by the *jocks* in school.... it broke my heart to read it BUT see what God did for him? Made him one of THE MOST talented writers of our time!! I can tell you, the God we speak of is
very real and HE is able to help you. HE is not something someone dreamed up, HE is not made of stone, HE IS real.
The JESUS we speak of, HIS son HE sacrificed for us, IS also
very real and
very much alive. If you
want help you can have it but you must ask JESUS to help you, He respects your right to choose. Jesus will never force Himself on you, HE will wait for you to ASK HIM. (Once you ask Him and truly mean it, HE
will come to your aid.)
Suicide is the answer the servants of satan or the demons give to mankinds problems. ASK yourself, why do they do that? Because they
FEAR YOU! Should you ever discover the Truth, understand who JESUS is and who
you are in HIM.... you would begin to become the person they have been terrified of since you were born! They must keep this from happening so they try to get you to kill yourself or at the very least give up and deny God... that way you have been rendered ineffective in the battle.
Make no mistake dear one, we are in a
battle. We were born into a battle that has raged since Adam and Eve. The battle is the forces of God against the forces of darkness and evil. God tells us to choose whom we shall serve. Those who say there is no God have made the choice to believe
deception and that is of the enemy, therefore they have made their choice too.
You, dear one, are a treasure that has been hidden away. The enemy has sent wave after wave of attack it sounds like, to deceive and destroy your heart and bury that treasure of God under a lot of muck and filth. So the question here is: Which side do you want to be on? If you want to find real answers, I suggest you find someone you trust and pm with them. Find out more about our JESUS, who HE is to them and what the Word of God says, about YOU.
Dear one, Jesus has
already defeated the enemy. HE wants to give us our hearts and our lives back. These are the words of JESUS.
John 10:10 The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have [it] more abundantly.
The JESUS we know and are speaking of, is
SO wonderful! I've been down many bad roads and fallen in some hideous pits, but I
can tell you what JESUS has done for me. HE loved me and when I finally surrendered to Him and called to Him with all my heart, He came into my heart and my life became totally, radically different. He restored me and put my shattered life back and made it into something wonderful when I had broken it into a million shards of useless glass, HE took those shards and made something
beautiful. HE wants to do that for you too..... but HE can't until
you make the decision. The choice is up to you.
If you want someone to chat with, my pm box is
always open.... If I can help or if you have more questions, you don't understand something I have said, please send me a private message.... I shall try to help you. Once again forgive us all, we are followers of our JESUS but we are still learning and sometimes we don't do things right.... or say things the way we should... we get so excited about Him and sharing, we don't remain sensitive to others pain.... so forgive us if we have caused you to doubt Him for we are only
poor representatives of our Incredible and Awesome Lord JESUS! HE is so much more than any of us can begin to tell you.... HIS LOVE IS AMAZING and it can reach into the darkest pits....
I pray your wounded spirit will find some solace in something I have said and perhaps you will look again at our wonderful JESUS..... BIG CYBERSPACE
's I speak peace to your spirit. The next step is up to you...
~Cyberwing
for you mate, if yu wanna contact me, send me a private message and i will respond. even if you agree with nothning i have sed and think i am a total nutcase, but just wanna see if i am for real about talking to you, go ahead! i want to listen to you and help you, 
The people here have given you some great advice. More precious than jewels they are, and so are you. Just follow the advice given here and you will eventually be put on a path of Light if you are willing to follow it. I care about you and I would love to hang with you if you want. We could perhaps go and play some games somewhere together or just chat and hang. 
