Sometimes it's hard to see why God allows us to go through certain things in our lives. A lot of times we question, "why?". I've been doing a lot of that over the past few years and especially the last few months.
I have been dealing with an abusive, cocaine addict, alcoholic, recently unemployed husband. Our situation at this point is pretty bad.
I have cried my heart out to God, begging him to make it stop. Begging him to just take me out of this world because I can't do it anymore. Even in the midst of all this pain and turmoil, I know that God has a plan for my life. He's not just going to take me out of the game because it's not going the way I think it should.
I have recently come to the realization that God is training me for my future work. (Of course, if I'd realized what I was supposed to learn sooner, things might not have had to get so bad.) He is teaching me to rely on Him alone. Not my husband, and definitely not on myself. Sometimes I envy people who seem to have easier lives. They have good husbands, they have their lives all together. They can just go to church and live a good life and that's all anybody expects from them. I've always felt different though. I believe that God has chosen something great for me. Not that I'm great, but he has some big plan for me. He can't just let me live an easy, comfortable life. He has lessons to teach me so that I can fulfill my destiny.
These lessons have been very painful, but I thank him every day for these hardships. (Now that I know why.) I truly believe with all of my heart that when I finally get to what is on the other side of all this pain and misery, that God will be so greatly glorified! And I just might be happy.
I was a piece of clay on my potter's wheel. He was molding me and shaping me into what he wants me to be. I think now I'm in the fire, because this really hurts. I cannot wait until he has finished with me and I get to see the me that I've always wanted to be!
Thank you God for choosing a hard life for me. I must be special if you're willing to teach me these hard lessons. You didn't just let me be. You didn't just let me do whatever I wanted with my life. I chose you and you chose to mold me. Please help me keep my eyes on you and to see the future day when I will be made whole by you, and my whole family can be healed together. In Jesus' name, AMEN!
I have been dealing with an abusive, cocaine addict, alcoholic, recently unemployed husband. Our situation at this point is pretty bad.
I have cried my heart out to God, begging him to make it stop. Begging him to just take me out of this world because I can't do it anymore. Even in the midst of all this pain and turmoil, I know that God has a plan for my life. He's not just going to take me out of the game because it's not going the way I think it should.
I have recently come to the realization that God is training me for my future work. (Of course, if I'd realized what I was supposed to learn sooner, things might not have had to get so bad.) He is teaching me to rely on Him alone. Not my husband, and definitely not on myself. Sometimes I envy people who seem to have easier lives. They have good husbands, they have their lives all together. They can just go to church and live a good life and that's all anybody expects from them. I've always felt different though. I believe that God has chosen something great for me. Not that I'm great, but he has some big plan for me. He can't just let me live an easy, comfortable life. He has lessons to teach me so that I can fulfill my destiny.
These lessons have been very painful, but I thank him every day for these hardships. (Now that I know why.) I truly believe with all of my heart that when I finally get to what is on the other side of all this pain and misery, that God will be so greatly glorified! And I just might be happy.
I was a piece of clay on my potter's wheel. He was molding me and shaping me into what he wants me to be. I think now I'm in the fire, because this really hurts. I cannot wait until he has finished with me and I get to see the me that I've always wanted to be!
Thank you God for choosing a hard life for me. I must be special if you're willing to teach me these hard lessons. You didn't just let me be. You didn't just let me do whatever I wanted with my life. I chose you and you chose to mold me. Please help me keep my eyes on you and to see the future day when I will be made whole by you, and my whole family can be healed together. In Jesus' name, AMEN!
