Why does God allow OCD?

[rebornbeliever]

Why does God allow OCD to exist, especially scrupulosity? I understand that it's a mental illness and the result of living in a fallen world, but why does God allow some people to never have the assurance of being saved, suffer blasphemous thoughts 24/7 or whatever might keep someone in a state of almost constant terror to the point where one starts to long for the release of death at some moments? I mean, can he not make an exception of what the OCD targets in a believers' life. I can live with the fact that I have to check if the door of my house is really locked for 5 minutes before I can finally leave.

But living with the uncertainty that you might or might not have a relationship with God, resisting the urge to curse his name and fearing that almost every thing that you do is or might become sin makes life so incredibly hard and depressing, not mentioning the physical side effects like anxiety attacks, nausea, headaches, stomach aches, fatigue and weight loss.

''But just have faith and trust God.''

That's the problem with OCD, you do not have the freaking control over your head, your emotions and feelings or what you want to think. Every attempt to fight the thought with scripture backfires with ''what if...'' ''what if God isn't real'' ''What if I just fool myself'' ''what if the bible isn't real'' what if, what if, what if! Ignoring the thought will only result in more anxiety because it does not give you a clear picture of what kind of reality you are living in.

So my question is, what is God's point in letting us suffer so much because this terrible mental illness only makes it feel like God is far away.

I can relate to almost everything you wrote especially the bold parts. I'd love to have that peaceful reassurance others have. They can proudly say they're saved. When I do that, the OCD says, "Are you sure about that? Maybe you forgot or missed something critical, so you aren't really saved!" I feel like I won't "feel" saved until I walk into Heaven. Until then, I'll continue to worry that Jesus will turn from me on Judgement Day...

 

[Mari17]

I can relate to almost everything you wrote especially the bold parts. I'd love to have that peaceful reassurance others have. They can proudly say they're saved. When I do that, the OCD says, "Are you sure about that? Maybe you forgot or missed something critical, so you aren't really saved!" I feel like I won't "feel" saved until I walk into Heaven. Until then, I'll continue to worry that Jesus will turn from me on Judgement Day...

My personal opinion is that none of us can really "know" for sure that we're saved, just by our feelings. We can trust what God's Word says (although of course OCD can make us doubt that, too!). But I hesitate to accept a person's strong feelings of reassurance as full proof that they're saved. Having those feelings is nice, but I don't think we can use feelings as 100% proof of ANYTHING. And especially when we have OCD, our fears and obsessions tend to cover up our normal intuition about things and make it very difficult to ascertain our feelings accurately anyway.