Why do I believe in God? I need him. When my life was all screwed up and I did things that I deeply regretted, I had no answers or no where to go. I always believed in his existence, but wanted not to be controlled. I wanted to do whatever pleased me. Sin and shamefulness took over me. I had lost my morals and seemed controlled but ungodly lusts and ugliness. When you go off the deep end, because you believed that somehow you could control things and yourself, yet you were infected and damaged goods, something had gone wrong coming up from childhood. When my Ex left me many years later after my initial healing, I found that I wanted Christ more than ever. Is it hurts that brings us closer to Him? God has helped heal me and restore me, so that I am a normal caring human being. I know at 60 year olds that death is close by and that you can not be complacent about life, be on your guard.
I came here to help others in their search of God & Christ. I began to read about everything Christian to know how I believed. I don't want to die and not have tried to help others with their faiths or to develop it. I discovered somethings about myself, when I discovered things about Christianity. I must have asked God a lot of very bold questions. I have formed a belief in things uniquely different than the main bodies of Christians. That is ok. Being different is quite normal for me. I have found persecutions towards me here on Christian Forums because I question Christendom's formation which is the basis of this website. It seems that the rules governing how Christians talk here keep us from questioning what we are suppose to accept period.
I have resolved to just live the way that Christ has asked us and simply turn away from what I don't believe in, not to discuss it. There is one thing that is true within Christians and that is there is no freedom of speech. God knows our relationships with him, we don't need to worry about the vast majority's beliefs or the 33,000 and growing denomination's and their also.
I was asked about Trinity, one time on a mission trip by a new convert & his family. I didn't really know or have an answer. When I came home and spending months of research into it, I know what I believe and would have an answer for anyone who asked me. However, I can not speak here or I will again be reprimanded or banned. I now try to tell people the best thing for them to do is follow Jesus and leave it at that. The modern world churches (opposed to the earliest churches) are really not the ones to follow or believe in. You have a personal relationship with Jesus and follow him. You will grow and develop much on your own with the Holy Spirit as your helper and guide. Better get started right away. Let the churches have their four walls including the four that govern here on this website, you will have your personal relationship with your Father and a wonderful full life in actually believing, obeying and following Jesus Christ, His son.
Let's suppose, a new convert were to ask me about Trinity now. A simple answer, to not step on toes (there are many out there to hit), hold on to Jesus and your Father with all that you have and definitely seek to please them. Forget the added burdens on your faith, of Trinity theology or others. It sure seems that I will eventually get banned on Christianforums. And I seem to say so little, but even one word against the idols of Christendom is too much.
I will leave Christianforums for awhile. I don't seem to fit in. There are questions that I asked God and received his answers. I can not share them here, because I am a heretic in this modern day world of faith. Does anyone question things anymore, does anyone have the courage to? The Greeks in the NT questioned everything and God thought well of them? There is harm in the church today, as a stumbling block to believers. They can survive with these stumbling blocks, as the early believers did with theirs, but outsiders get confused and distressed with the faith, so they don't understand or join. I try to bring people to Jesus alone. To be found believing him, obeying him and following him as he is God's son, is to be found faithful & worthy servant of God's. I want people to make it. I want outsiders looking in to see just Jesus, the living son of God. I want the confusion disease to cease. There is enough room in our minds and days to be in awe of God and allow for a few mysteries to remain until we see Him. Be found following his son, not toting around the baggage of blood stained Christendom. The closer you get to Jesus, the closer you get to his Dad and yours.
I might be silenced and will here, but I only dream of a direct unhindered route to God through Jesus, his son. A most wonderful thing indeed. When will people finally return to the awesomeness and mystery of our Father by first and only coming to him by his beloved son, Jesus Christ. When I pray to God, I speak to Jesus' Father and I pray that he is mine own Father as well. I have no trouble in my heart to accept Jesus and our Father in Heaven in the idea of Father and son. I love that idea. I wouldn't want to change a thing. I accept the mysteries and awesomeness of Jesus' words and his closeness to his Dad. Why do people constantly try to silence those who don't accept their coerced dominating beliefs? What terrible sin am I committing to accept just the way it was written and no more (God's warning: add nothing to scripture or be curse!). The Bible warns me not to add anything to scripture. Since when is derived theology from scripture scripture itself. I call a spade a spade. Leave the Bible alone and let people be saved by the scripture (Words of Jesus) and with the help of the Holy Spirit.
Since I will most certainly be banned on Christianforums for this post, I might as well be a full heretic here and speak to the few that might glance at this post before it with me are burned at the stake (again). After posting this post, I will politely leave Christianforums for a long time. I may return in the future to see if I was burned at the stake or not.
You don't need to debate things to follow Jesus thus his Father's will. I never intended to. I just see outsiders looking in and realizing that they just don't fit and don't know that they can believe all that they are suppose to (like Trinity, the terrible Christian Histories that the churches possess, huge divides between Christians and down right hatred towards each other). It seems like a paradox to be Christian and to obey and follow Christ. It shouldn't be that way. If I ever help someone today to become a Christian, it would be a real pleasure and quite simple. I know the answers and can lay down the most perfect foundation for them (the Rock, Jesus). I really don't know why Christians hang on to things like man-made summaries (might as well be scared idols for that matter) and why not to be more child like and fixated on Jesus' example and teachings and let there be room to be awed by the workings of God. I don't have any idols (no Crosses, theological sticking points or what have you). I am finding that I really do need to leave Christianforums. Here, I am a heretic and will be and have been silenced. Like I have in the past, I will copy this post to save it, for it will be burned at their stake here, for sure. I am sorry to leave on such grounds, it just seems like I can not help the ones that are seeking Jesus here. What I give to them is always insufficient by Christianforums standards (must have Trinity and etc.; they seem to say that just obeying and following Jesus doesn't save anymore. I differ with them. Ones searching for God must not be confused and must have Jesus alone and all of his etc. period.
I have enjoyed posting here over the years. I know that God has used me to help others, but Christianforums is not a person, it is just a thing. I know why we have so many church problems & denominations. I had asked God these and many other questions. With his help, I believe that I have found my answers. Dare to ask him questions and be sincere, he will help you to know the answers and the truth about things. You will also get to be a heretic like me. Remember, Jesus and many disciples were thought of as blasphemers (heretics).
Don't accept unity at any price. Seek the truth as the Greeks did and you will be found seeking Jesus Christ.
Well, I will keep my own personal copy of this will be silenced post. Maybe, I should start a website, a collection of silenced posts. Have a good lifetime, I hope praying, listening to, and obeying our Lord and savior alone, Lord Jesus Christ. May our Father in Heaven bless and keep you always.
PS The reason that things like Trinity should be abandoned isn't just the blood stained history that it has, but that it has burdened the Gospel of Christ by allowing for divisions, causing confusion for just about everyone (inside and outside of the church), contaminated Christianity with its idolatry like influences and steps out of line to our calling and the teachings from Christ. We were meant to be followers of Christ alone and to discern and check everything out. That isn't allowed here in Christianforums. At least now, I can help spread the Gospel only as it was written, nothing of man's way or thinking.
Sorry to get a little loud at times. I never meant to hurt people. I am not really welcomed here or am I accepted as brethren, just because my faith rest not in man, but in a very personal relationship with our Father and in Jesus Christ, his son and my Lord.
You would be surprised at how many people are turned off by our man-made summaries (theologies) and blood stain past (Christian's hatred for one another). To not follow Christ, by accepting something outside of his Gospel (added to) only burdens the Church. Nothing trumps the Word, especially man's theologies. Have a good day.