Why do these thougts get in my head"?

[Sign Of The Fish Burger]

Of cutting myself? why why why!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it! I am not normal. I shouldnt htink of these things... and I should do them

whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

I hate this

there is a battle in my head

bah
I am such a psycho
I am so stupid
I am such a looser
yuck I make myself sick
I am a lousy human being

 

[JC4uNme]

Many hugs for you.....

From what I see, you are being attacked by Satan -- He is the one putting those toughts into your head. Satan knows his time is short here on this earth so he is all around trying to get people discouraged.

For starters.....
You are NOT a psyco.
You are NOT stupid.
You are NOT a looser.
You are NOT a lousy human being.

These are all lies from Satan himself and PLEASE don't you listen to them.

Go to God in prayer. Tell Him what is going on (even though He already knows) and ask Him to protect you and to be with you when you have these thoughts. He loves you and will always be with you.


I will be praying hard for you. I know some of what you are going through. Not too long ago I wanted to kill myself because I thought all those things you are thinking plus some. It's not fun. But, a lot of prayer from friends and family really helped and pulled me through. So, i'm praying for you, dear.

Hang in there and hang onto God........ He loves you!!!!!!

 

[Sign Of The Fish Burger]

You might be psycho. Get checked out by a shrink before you start cutting/cut yourself more.

Thanks that really helped...

 

[Mylinkay Asdara]

Okay, look- I'm not Christian, so you might not want my opinion on this sensitive matter, but if you go into your psych and tell him that Satan is sending you bad thoughts, well, I can't think of a faster way to get committed without violence thrown in the mix.

I know what you're going through, I've been there myself-and I was there for a long time. You need to find someone in the REAL world that you can trust and get some help, even if it's just talking. Mainly, you should be trying to find out why you feel the need or desire to cut yourself (and not take the cop out that "Satan made me do it")

If you need further assistance, please do not hesitate to ask.

 

[Mark W]

Check out the book call "Bondage Breaker" by Neil Anderson.

Blessings,


Mark

 

[Kristen]

SOTF...

Seek help now, go to the doctor, seek a "Christian" counsler. You are not alone. I will be praying for you.



Your are beautiful inside and out, always remember that.

I am here if you need to talk!

 

[Cat59]

You are a child of God, and He does not make rubbish. I agree with Kristen, find someone you can trust like a counsellor or someone from your church or your doctor, who you can talk to about these things. I'll pray for you too.

 

[Mylinkay Asdara]

Christian or otherwise, make it someone you can really talk to and really trust. Otherwise all efforts will be for naught.

Blessings upon you. I remember when I was in that place.

People cut themselves for a variety of reasons. These are the most common: 1) Attention- negative or positive (most people aren't aware that they are doing it for attention and instead tell themselves that they some how deserve to suffer because no one pays attention to them)
2) Because they find it enjoyable- much like a high (a small high) letting blood makes the body release endorphins and makes you feel relieved of pressure and stress (mometarily)
3) Because they wish to punish themselves- these people really believe that they are the cause or at least the guilty party in the bad things that have happened or are existant in their lives. Punishment becomes a way to atone and possibly make things better in their minds. (Usually this is coupled with not eating, over eating, purging, not sleeping or sleeping all the time)
4) To prove one exists- this is the most rare reason, but also the most dangerous. Mainly because people who cut for this reason rarely get 'caught' and almost never seek help. They cut because they (however momentarliy) feel as though they are not. They cease as a pressence in their own mind and cut themselves to re-affirm their 'here-ness', sometimes saving them from greater harm (nothing like not believing you exist while driving) but mostly just because they can't think of another way to 're-connect'

These are my words. This is what I learned when I went through this from listening to my support systems and medical proffesionals. If you or anyone you care about is going through this, you need to consider the best options for help. Sometimes being sent to a doctor will push someone over the edge and other time's it's the only thing that will help.

Blessings,
Mylinka Asdara

 

[urbanfaerie]

Quote:

Originally Posted by: desi

You might be psycho. Get checked out by a shrink before you start cutting/cut yourself more.

Thanks that really helped...

sumtimes the truth hurts. tho psycho is a harsh word, but lets face it, it isnt normal to wanna cut urself. and the act in doing so, makes u 'abnormal' i.e, a freak, mentally deranged, psychotic, all those nice words..(i SI i can say that )

i think desi had good advice. and i echo it. see a counselor/therapist..whatever.. before u get urself in a mess of trouble, u can't get out of..

theres obviously sumthing going on thats making u think self injury is appealing..

 

[wblastyn]

"Bottom line is, even if you see them coming, you're not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So, what are we, helpless? Puppets? Nah. The big moments are gonna come, you can't help that. It's what you do afterwards that counts. That's when you find out who you are."

-[size=-1]Whistler, Buffy the Vampire Slayer

[/size]
I love that scene.

 

[urbanfaerie]

rah! a buffy fan.

my fav scene.. is :

Buffy: Okay, I'm cookie dough. I'm not done baking yet. I'm not finished becoming... whoever the hell it is I'm gonna turn out to be. I make it through this and the next thing and the next thing, and maybe one day I turn around and realize I'm ready, I'm cookies. And then, y'know, if I want someone to eat m -- or, enjoy warm delicious cookie-me, then that's fine. That'll be then. When I'm done.
Angel: Any thoughts on who might enjoy... do I have to go with the cookie analogy?

*g*

 

[Kathy]

Hi....First of all,you need to see a doctor and find out why you feel like hurting yourself.second..You need to talk to a counselor...If you feel like talking,just drop me some e-mail....Take care & God Bless....

 

[desi]

Thanks that really helped...

Hey. I'd feel bad if I told you not to worry and you hurt yourself instead of seeking help.

 

[reggie]

all acts of sin cause guilt, do you think by cutting yourself up you will relieve guilt? no. there is sin undealt with in your life and it is tearing you up inside, confess them to God. 1 John 1:9 "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

What would Jesus do? He would die for you, but when in temptation he quoted Scriptures, the Scriptures are your hope, quote them, pray them, believe them!

 

[reggie]

Remember, Jesus never sinned, never makes us sin, became sin, and conquored sin.

 

[Jesus_loves_you]

I'm sorry to hear of your mental state. I know what you're going through and I know that there is so much involved in self abuse. It's more than just "Oh I should cut myself."

I'm not into going to "Doctors" because I believe that Spiritual matters affect the physical. If your mental affects the physical (stress resulting in headaches and ulcers) than surely the spiritual affects the mental.

I believe that spiritual health helps generate maintain good mental health.

Only you know, in your quiet time, how your relationship with Jesus is.

Pray, and remember the love that Jesus has for you. No matter what you do, He loves you. For who you are, not who you will become. That's the beauty of God's love. He loves and accepts you for who you are.

I hope this helps in some way.

Peace and stuff.

 

[EliasEmmanuel]

Of cutting myself? why why why!!!!!!!!!!!

I hate it! I am not normal. I shouldnt htink of these things... and I should do them

First of all, you are not stupid, or a lousy human being.

Second.... something some other folks havn't brough up yet (though there's been some good advice in this thread) is that a lot of people cut as a kind of release, to "let out" emotions etc. that they don't feel they can get out of their systems otherwise. So there's a possibility to consider.

I was talking with a friend of mine, who's a councilor, and we discussed cutting for a while (rest assured, this is something a LOT of people deal with), and one thing he recommends to the cutters he works with is to find a form of substitution.... for example, holding an ice cube in your hand.... that gets the same effect without harming you. It's not a cure, but it's a step in the right direction....

And I take serious issue with folks who come in here laying further burdens on people who're already hurting and seem dead set on making them feel worse.... that's all I'll say on that.

 

[ej]

Self-harm is a mind-boggling thing


I've never self-harmed, but I often think about it. Heck, I've even looked in the drug fridge at work and worked out what cocktail I'd use to kill myself, where I'd inject it so they wouldn't find the marks, how I'd get rid of the vials and needle before I pass out...

I know that when I'm upset or frustrated, I could do anything to myself and it won't hurt. With all the angry, upset feelings, I know that I could break my own bones, cut myself to bits, and it would never hurt at all.

(am I weird? You could ask any person who knows me, and they'd tell you I'm one of the happiest, luckiest, most contented people they know. I reckon everyone -yep, even totally settled people- feels like this every once in a while, especially when bad things happen. its not weird at all. It becomes weird when you do it, and put your hurt ahead of everything else in the world)

So if I have such strong urges, why do I never do anything to myself?

As I imagine doing these things, I also imagine the after-effects. I imagine friends worrying about me; I imagine there being nobody to do my job at work; I imagine the faces of my family and friends when they hear about my death; I imagine my mum having a breakdown; I imagine my dad feeling like a failure; I imagine my sister doing badly at school; I imagine being put into a category of mad-people-who-self-harm-and-parasuicide; I remember the number of people who care, and would be devastated if I were hurt.

That's why I never act on these urges, even though I have them all the time. I'm not important enough to upset so many people.

 

[jayebrownlee]

there has been a lot of good advice in this thread already so I won't ramble on but if you wantt o tlak to someone who has been there done that and got the T-shirt then PM me, I have cut, scratched, hit myself with hammers and alsorts before now so I knwow where you are coming from.

Jay

 

[BigToe]

I am praying for all of you and am here if anyone needs someone to just listen. I love you all deeply.